last day at the cage for year 2016. there is something sad about the air. it feels like im leaving something which is weird because im not yet even leaving. idk. i wonder if this is just due to lack of sleep.
j-holiday on jan 2 and 3 plus i filed a leave for 4 and 5 so im gonna be back here on the 6th. that's a whole week vacay. hoping to work on some biz. my figure is in no way fit enough to be convincing pero bahala n. kung hindi e di hindi. i wish i have a better resolve than this. i think i only have one shot, so dapat maayos. kaso. bahala na ulet. wahh!
just recieve another love letter from the office. was asked to send a written explanation for my XX minutes late for the month of dec alone. funny i needed to check my archives here to remember my reason. i can just fabricate reasons, pero kasi... idk. parang nakakalungkot kasi magsinungaling... sigurado akong hindi eto dahil sa mabait ako. lol. alam ko namang hindi ako tatamaan ng kidlat agad agad kung magsisinungaling ako. basta ayoko lang. i swear, i lie from time to time though..
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club contest in january. dont know if im joining. sabi sa nabasa ko before, "absence can make a heart grow fonder," daw,---OR FORGETFUL. i dont know. lately kasi i dont miss tm meetings so much anymore. ive actually been thinking of not renewing my membership come march so that i can narrow down my focus. i can just imagine what would happen if i do that. my life basically lacks human interaction and our twice a week meetings are the only time that i get to interact with REAL people, tapos, mag-ki-quit pa ko?!! i dont know what's wrong with me. i think im just feeling tired lately.
may speech pala ko next week. takte, hindi pa ko nakakasulat. huhu.
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there was this certain "irish" i found in facebook. i dont know her but i think she writes about celebrities and is quite making a name in the industry. i cant verify my info kasi tinatamad akong mag google. but i followed this irish kasi i saw a post of hers that someone shared on facebook. it was politics related and aside from the fact that i totally agree with her point, i love how she was able to verse herself with her words. galing e.
kanina she posted her reaction about someone who posted something about the person's disappointment for the changes in mmff lineup. i read her peice and my jaw dropped. takte, ang galing nitong taong to..
wala lang... ive been writing since forever. even before i learned to read.. nakakapagtaka lang, bat kaya hindi ako gumagaling? haha. in a way, parang ok lang naman. sa tingin ko, ayoko rin naman magsulat para sa industry. hindi nga rin ako sigurado kung gusto ko talagang magsulat. pero tuwang tuwa ako pag may taong sobrang galing magsulat tas biglang meron something inside me na sasakit at mahu-hurt kasi gusto ko rin maging ganun kagaling. pero hindi yung masamang hurt. baka nga hindi hurt e. siguro hunger? flame? passion? i dont know. ang gulo gulo ko kasi. bakit ba ang hirap hanapin ng sarili?
i remember richard branson once said something like ang dami daw sinirang buhay nung pag hahanap ng ONE thing that we were born for. kasi, maybe we were not necessarily born for just ONE thing, right?
I think same goes for the ONE person that most people search. I think it doesn't necessarily have to be just ONE. That maybe we're not really meant for just one person. That it's not like there's only one "THE ONE" and the rest are wrong ones and maybe there could be a lot of rights ones we can choose from. well, i actually just read the idea from bo sanchez's "how to find your one true love" book, and i totally agree. But, ok, that's another story.
siguro ino overthink ko na naman ang mga bagay bagay so enough na nga.
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one more day and 2016 will be over. just a few days ago i was excited for 2017. i dont know what's with this sad sad sad feeling. i swear im not being emo. did something just happen that i dont remember? sheesh.. what's wrong?
PS: gusto ko mag 8/8 in this year's MMFF... 8x250php... that's roughly 2000php.. ang mahal.. so sad... 
but im watching.. im watching.. promise!!
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