i slept at 1200 and woke up 0330. my head spins as i type this.

memorized my speech last night. kaya naman pala ng isang araw kung pipilitin talaga. it usually take me a week to do so. same goes for writing a speech. dapat yung tipong pipilitin mo talaga yung sarili mo. i remember someone told me "wag mong pilitin ang sarili mo, siguro may panahon talaga para dun." ngayon ko naisip na hindi totoo yun. i think we have more power over ourselves than we think we do. but you chose to give up, r... erm, tungkol sa speech pa ba to?

contest na tomorrow. from there, i can breathe na. sana naman hindi ko hiyain ang sarili ko dun. lalo na sa table topics. will be completing with a former national champ na taga area 2 din on both contests. i met him last sat sa COT2. he was good and he's funny. alam kong laging plus sa mga contest if marunong kang mag add ng humor sa speech. im not really scared, im more... i dont know- curious? i want to see what he got. hope he wont disappoint. i wonder if i should be worried na baka ilampaso nya lang ang speech ko sa contest. for some reason, im not. it's not even because i think mine is better. i doubt it is.

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so want to watch, im drunk, i love you(or is it i love you, im drunk?).. matapos ko lang to, manonood talaga ko. wait ka lang Carson, im gonna meet you soon.

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