Hi Thursday!
I accepted defeat against hormonal imbalance, forgot dieting completely and gave in to a sumptuous breakfast so I feel a little happier this morning.
Last night, Dad called me over. I thought some potential customer was looking for me. Hindi pala. Asa. He just wanted me to watch some tv segment na ang topic daw e "how to attract opposite sex." I knew he was just nang-aasar, I just allowed him to annoy me. I wasn't busy anyway. Turned out, it was some feng sui (did I spell it right? Ugh, too lazy to Google?) thingy, which both of us do not believe in, so we ended up with a little kwentuhan session nalang. I told Dad about the tarot reading thingy I found on the net, which I tried. Told him that most of my cards said I'm gonna get pregnant, and Dad was like, "OK lang naman mabuntis ka para may anak ka na. Basta piliin mo lang kung sino tatay." I can't believe this came from my own dad. Lol, but seriously, I bet Dad has no idea how relieved and happy I am that I'm not pregnant. Hahaha.
I guess my parents are like most people. They see having children as a form of security. Something that guarantees that you're gonna be taken care of once you're too old to take care of yourself, or siguro sa status na rin. Mga bagay na I don't really care about.
Ang saken naman, if I am to bring another life into this world, gusto ko yung capable na ko to add value to that child's life. Gusto ko ung ako na yung tipo ng parent that my child/children can be proud of. Ganern. Truth be told, I too would like to have a child of my own. Siguro kasi I want to pass on the things I learned to my child or children. Well, there's kaitlyn, I know. Pero siguro iba pag anak ko talaga. I wonder if I'm touching the security part here.
Still, being single, unattached and childless has it's own bliss. I feel like I can be whatever I want to be, go wherever I want to go and possibilities are endless. I guess I'm staying here for now.
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that feeling you get when you're friends' CHILDREN are starting to add you up in facebook.
they are growing up.
which means, im getting older.
ugh, pak.
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