"Let it go,"- Queen Elsa

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Spent Friday night up to 2 in the morning with the people from our club. And then spent Sunday afternoon to evening at Ivan's place with them too. Know what, i love these people. 

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It's j-holiday Monday so I'm home now. I just spent the morning watching nursery rhymes and frozen for the gazillionth time with my niece clinging on my arms not allowing me to move. I'm just glad that it's a long weekend so I got an extra day to spend with my niece after being out during the weekend. 

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I remember Robert Greene's characters of seduction. I guess it's easier to get on the game if u know ur own character and the one you're battling with. It's the charmer vs. the natural this time. Much like Goliath vs David, really. But the Universe had proven time and again how it favors the underdog most of the time so we really can't tell the outcome, right? 

A side of me says, "do not forget ur role in the game."

But the other side wonders what's so wrong with allowing yourself to be seduced and let go. 

What's so wrong with allowing yourself to be seduced and let go? 

I never underestimate myself in the same way that I never underestimate anyone. I do not really fear getting hurt. I learned self-reliance a long time ago and I can handle heartbreaks pretty well. I'm more than prepared. I only fear wasting my time and starting over again. Ayun lang naman. 

So what now? Game on or let go? 

I feel too lazy to decide. Or at least right now. Bukas nalang. 

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I wish I'm just as confident and fearless on the career and financial front. Ugh, pak this.

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Know what, my definition of freedom is when you do not shrink your 'I love you' into 'we love you', 

And 'I miss you',  into 'we miss you'. Or even shrink that further into 'thank you',  and 'see you soon'... 

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That's the kind of freedom I seek and I'm still battling to get. Love is so much work, I wonder if it will be all worth it in the end.  

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