In the bus now, typing this while listening to my phone's playlist. This is the closest I got to multitasking. 

On the way home from my panata day Wednesday. It has probably been a year since I last went to my favorite chapel. The mall it is in changed a lot. I used to memorize every stall in there, now, they're all different. But the chapel didn't change much. Wala paring umuupo sa favorite seat ko. Perhaps I will always be the only one who would ever dare to sit there. Sino nga naman kasi ang magiging crazy enough to sit on a pew that says (more like screams) 'reserved seat'. Keribels. Dun ko kasi talaga gusto umupo e. Nakakatuwa lang. That same place that served as my sanctuary for years is still giving me that same peace I can't seem to find elsewhere. This will cut hours off to whatever number of hours left for me to sleep but I'm glad I went there. 

Years ago, I remember crying to the Heavens, asking for an answer tungkol sa mga bagay na nasa Bible na hindi ko sinasang-ayunan. Tonight, I heard it in father's sermon. Binigay Niya yung sagot. Nakakatawa lang, ang hirap talaga i-predict ng timing ng Langit. Minsan mapapangiti ka nalang talaga at masasabi mo sa sarili mo na 'ang bait ni God no?' Well, totoo. 

Since mabait naman ang Diyos, sinamantala ko na. I once again asked for someone. Sabi nila pag hihingi ka daw sa Diyos, wag daw particular na Tao ang hingin mo kundi yung characteristics ng taong gusto mo makuha. Dahil matigas ang ulo ko, hindi ko sinunod. See, the last time I asked the Heavens for someone, He immediate gave that someone to someone else the next day. Ganun din ang nangyari to the ones I asked before that. So what do u think am I expecting to get? Well, wala naman. Naisip ko lang na kung ibibigay Niya, then the guy's mine. If He'd give the guy to someone else, then I can move on and out of this already. Win-win right? And then, shoot! I remember. He is actually currently someone else's. Ugh. Nakalimutan ko talaga. Oh, well, nasabi ko na kay God. That is no longer my problem but His. 

Sa ngayon kasi, ang dami ko talagang kailangang ayusin sa buhay ko. Minsan hindi ko na talaga alam ang gagawin. Pero, push. Naniniwala akong magiging maayos ang lahat. 

Gaya ng dati, bring it on, World. Kahit ano pa yan, kaya ko yan. 

09:17 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。

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