Sabi ko, sa McDo ako mag be breakfast today para makapagsulat ako ng speech, kaso may pumasok sa isip ko na kailangan ko isulat dito. Well, siguro tinatamad lang rin ako. 

Ang galing galing ni Irish (heneral), sumasakit ang puso ko...

Sabi nila, yung mga taong nirerespeto at hinahangaan mo ang clue sa kung anong gusto mong maging. Alam ko naman na before pa. Pero siguro overtime e nag eevolve din talaga ang mga gusto naten. 

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I got home last night and was about to enter my room when I saw sis-in-law with walis tambo in hand wiping sweat off her forehead and a broad smile drawn across her face. She showed me kaitlyn's newly assembled playhouse that she assembled herself. She intends to show it to kaitlyn daw once brother came back home from work so that together they can surprise their daughter. She looked happy. 

I saw it even before she and my brother got married, how she can make a wonderful wife and mother. Just like mom. I think they are the type whose happiness is defined in building a family. Being a spouse and a parent. 

and that was when it hit me. How different I am from her and mom. 

Sure, there is also that side of me who daydreams and wishes to build a family, but it was more of a very silent voice so much like a whisper. A more dominant side screams something else. Something I want so bad it hurts. Magagawa ko kaya? Siguro yun yung exciting na part. Ung fact na wala naman talagang nakakaalam... 

As I age, mas maraming pume pressure saken about how I should be this and that. I know most of them are just concerned. But instead of living to fit in to the world's standards, sa tingin ko, what I want most right now is to follow my heart. 

Unti unti, lumilinaw na sakin ang lahat...

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