Holy Thursday at work. Not really complaining. I'd rather spend this day at home though, watching the usual holy week's special on tv. 

Just had breakfast. I'm loving McDonald's playlist. It baffles me how songs can send you into thinking of someone close to your heart, wishing that you can be with that person, right here, right now. 

I think, kahit yung mga pagsintang walang patutunguhan have it's own bliss so maybe there's no point of fearing your own feelings. That pretty much sounds like martyrdom, pero sa tingin ko, yung pain and hurt naman e hindi actually nag stem out of the feelings itself kundi sa mga expectations mo na hindi na-meet. Kaya siguro yung expectations ang tino-tone down at hindi yung feelings. 

Isn't it nice? I think I'm learning. Maybe I can use being like this until such time na ready na ang Universe na ibigay saken ang para saken. By then, siguro super better person na ko na super ready na for....  I don't know... Love? 

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This realization doesn't keep me from missing that someone though. Maybe I'll outgrow this soon, but for now, let's keep it as it is and trust that my heart can handle everything. 

I will keep my side of the bargain. As for the rest, bahala ka na, Universe. 

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a lot of happenings in our club. met gabby yesterday at ivan's place to discuss some club anniversary related stuff that we're about to do.

discon, club anniversary, club outing and team building. Lord knows id love to join all these if it wasnt for a really tight budget. mom's 60th birthday on June and the expenses will surely be no joke. sabi sa nabasa ko, kung lagi ka nalang kulang sa budget, ibig sabihin, kulang ka sa imagination. siguro kailangang ko na talaga mag benta ng body parts.

election for the club officers on april 21. i was nominated as VP for education. i actually nominated myself as VP for membership because the position requires talking to guests (strangers) -- something i want to get better at. truth be told, 1 year in tm and i still feel like im gonna get sick whenever mentor asks me to entertain guests. if being an antisocial is a skill, im probably a genius. i didnt make a cut for the VP membership though. well, vp ed naman talaga gusto ko. but still, depende parin yun kung iboboto nila ko. as always, sigurado akong malulungkot ako kung hindi nila ko iboboto.

ok lang naman kung hindi ako magiging officer. nakakalungkot nga lang na mawawalan ako ng dahilan to hang out with gabby and everyone else in the club. well, i can always find other reasons naman, but still~

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grand feast this sun. will meet yang. moa arena. parang outer space. takte, walang mrt. huhu.

then some seminar next weekend with girls from the club. dahil ang passion ko naman talaga e "learning new things", i would normally get excited. well, excited naman ako. nakakaasar lang na activities like these are likely to drain so much out of my budget.

oh, please.. bilhin nio na kidney ko.. huhuhu. charot.

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