If only I was able to write here earlier, baka positive pa nasulat ko kaso ang dami kasing ganap. Sabi ang happiness daw ay inside job so kung laging ang daling maapektohan ng external factors ang kaligayahan ko, I'm probably doing it wrong. 

At this very minute, I'm fed up. I guess one of my hardest struggles e yung desire ko to control things. Ewan. Nakakawalan ng gana. 

Sana mabilis lang matutunang mag let go sa mga bagay bagay kasi ayoko ng ganitong feeling. 

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Last night, partner and I went to some event. Hindi nameet yung expectations namin pero overall, I'm glad that I went. Before the event kasi, partner brought me to some yayamaning condotel in ortigas where we stayed to freshen up and kill time. Partner paid for my access to their women's lounge thingy where there were sauna, steam bath, swimming pool and Jacuzzi. The place was posh. I remember the last luxurious place I've been to was in a 5-star hotel's executive suite that nini booked for us to stay nung wedding nya. Simpleng tao lang naman talaga ako but I don't deny that I enjoy occasional luxuries like these. 

The catch was, wala ako damit pamalit especially underthingies.  But boy, sayang ang moment, sayang ang bayad at sadyang inviting talaga yung Jacuzzi so I had to do it the way the Japanese do. Well, wala naman kasing tao, ako lang so Keri. Meron namang towel. Funny, I just ticked ski**ydi**ng off my bucket list. The sauna, the steam bath and the Jacuzzi were so good I felt like a princess for 45 minutes. Kung may extra underthingies lang ako I would've used the pool too tas talo talo na. 

Nakakatuwa lang, ang bait ni partner. 

Ang bait ng Diyos. 

Ang bait ng langit. 

Pwede, isa pa, Lord? Mga 2-hours naman. Hahahaha! 

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But know what... All these nice things and yet I wouldn't trade the simplicity of just sitting next to you, talking. 

Pero naiinis ako sayo ngayon at ayoko talaga yung feeling ng naiinis kaya lalo tuloy akong naiinis sayo.

Sighsss... 

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Sa tingin ko, dapat binibigyan ng deadline ang mga ganitong bagay...

Dapat before the month ends OK na ko. This I will do. Oh, pak this. 

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We're meeting meguri on Friday. Lack of sleep continues. I can't look forward on anything kasi nga naiinis ako. 

A little more than a week will be our club's anniversary. Hindi na daw pupunta si neri. I don't know how to convince her. Lord, can you fix all these for me? 

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