"Pure hell forces action, but anything less can be endured with enough clever rationalization." -Tim Ferriss

"If this isn't pure hell, I don't know what is." - Z

Terrible day. I thought I wouldn't make it out alive from the cage. Oh God... Ano bang gagawin ko? 

Pero siguro this is just the Universe's way of kicking me into action. Pero ano bang pwede Kong gawin? God, I don't know. 

But I'm glad that some things ended well. Damang dama ko ang pagmamahal mo, Lord sa mga ganitong milagro. Still, ang kinabukasan ay isa na namang bagong delubyong bubunuin. Pengi nga ng superpowers, Lord. 

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After urging me to try tinder, wechat naman daw ang itry ko sabi ni partner. I know he's just trying to help. I don't know why I can't find any appetite on any of these. 

Know what, I saw cherwin yesterday. Yung ultimate crush ko nung high school. I remember, his was one of the most beautiful faces I know. Kahapon, nakilala ko nalang sya sa mga mata nya. Still beautiful as ever yung eyes nya but the rest was different. There were lines in his forehead and a huge bulge on his belly. Siguro kung kilala ko sya personally, I wouldn't have minded. Kaso hindi e. 

We will probably get there, no? Or maybe, already getting there na. Gravity will soon make everything fall down and sag. The once cute and once youthful will turn to grey, get wrinkled and look old.

Sa tingin ko, importante ang looks. Reflection kasi yun on how well you take care of yourself na requirement para you can take care of someone else too. Pero siguro it's not necessary to put too much premium on it since beauty will eventually fade din naman talaga. 

What I want to put more effort on is in acquiring this skill that I know will get better over time. Conversational skill. Pag nawala na kasi yung looks, lust and maybe energy narin, sa tingin ko, yun yung best na magsu-sustain ng relationship... 

Pero, meron bang lalaking bumibili sa conversational skills these days?

Teka, antok n antok n ko bukas nmn... Zzzzzzz.