It's a laid back weekend. I'm home and will be too tomorrow since parents are having a social life so I, the daughter, is going to be left home to man the house. Not really complaining. 

Woke up 9am this morning. I usually wake up way earlier than that but the weather's making it hard for me to leave my bed. 

Cooked lunch because bro, wife and kid were away and dad wasn't feeling well. Bro said my cooking was good daw. Yey!

From lunch onwards, I have no idea where my day went. I'm just pretty sure I wasn't productive. 

Mom's 60th birthday celebration in a few weeks. I'm on a hermit mode so I can't really get excited about it. Hopefully my social juju will get fully replenished prior that date. 

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I remember bro used to say that one of the reasons why he fell for his gf then now wife was because, "ang lambot lambot nya kasi." Bro's wife is a plus size so it's logical for her to be soft, but then something tells me that the reason's probably something else. 

I remember some dude told me that same 'ang lambot lambot nyo po' thing when our arms accidentally touched. I felt it too and I thought it was him who was 'malambot'. The dude was thin and I was at my thinnest at that time too so we were not so likely to be malambot. And it was a weird type of 'lambot', I think 'tender' is the better term. At that time the dude was nsfw level flirty flirty with me. Madre level ako eversince so wala naman talagang nangyari but I don't deny that there sure was an effect on me. Syempre, Hindi naman talaga ako robot. Still, I wonder if that's the 'malambot' that my brother was talking about. That gave me this theory that maybe it could be an indication of a mutual physical or emotional attraction. It's like the emotional tenderness is manifesting itself into physical tenderness. Pero syempre, theory lang naman to. 

Since then I've always been mindful whenever I touch people. I'm seeking that kind of lambot again so that I can test my theory some more. 5 years of seeking and just yesterday I found it. It was from a boy. (Thankfully it was a boy because if otherwise, I would've panicked.) I've known the boy for some time and yet yesterday ko lang napansin na his lambot was beyond normal. The boy is boney, he shouldn't be malambot, right? Itatanong ko sana if na feel nya ba na malambot ako just to test kaso earlier that night mejo nagiging lokohan na yung jokes namin so I probably won't get a serious answer. Posibleng wala lang rin naman. I don't remember him being this malambot before. Probably the effect of his "halikan kita dyan" joke last night. He'll probably get back to normal. We'll probably get back to normal. 

Will be seeing the boy in a week. From there, I can take some more tests. 

What will I get out of this? I don't know. Gusto lang naman malaman. Wala naman akong gagawin. He's just a boy. Or is he?

Suddenly, I'm not so sure anymore. This is bad. Lol. 

10:39 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。

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