Entries in category "土曜日"
Shet, ang intense. Di ko kayang panoorin. Saan ba merong transcribed version? I need to make sure 1st that the male lead will be safe in the end. Juice colored. Nakakakaba. Putek.
Work has started at 10 and my pc is still updating. T_T
Wahh!!!! Jisoo! Wahh!!!!
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Written by cinderellaareus at 10:18 AM.
My daydream last night involved a scenario on what I'm gonna do if mabibigyan ako ng chance na bumalik sa past at baguhin ang mga decisions ko sa buhay. Minor stuff. Tingin ko wala naman talaga akong pinagsisisihan sa mga pinaggagagawa ko noon.
Pero kung bibigyan ka ng chance na bumalik sa past to start over again, babalik ka ba?
Ako, hindi na siguro.
When was the last time I left the house?
Nakalimutan ko na ang feeling ng nakasuot ng sapatos. When we went to SM few months back, naka tsenelas at harabas clothes lang ako. Lol. Ok lang, naka mask naman. They wouldn't know it was me.
I have absolutely no problem about having to stay home. Nalulungkot lang ako because my niece and nephew are not here. A day before they left to Cavite for my baby nephew's vaccine schedule, I was watching tv with my niece and she told me, "Tita nalulungkot ako. Ayoko kasi pumuntang Cavite. Gusto ko dito." She never said anything like this when her mother is around. Kawawa naman ang pamangkin ko. Naiwan pa nila yung dede nya rito sa bahay.
When she said that, I told her na uuwi lang rin naman sila agad. But then, MECQ happened. And now I don't know if they'll be able to go back home after 18th. I miss my niece so much. T_T
Nakakapraning to have children at a time like this.
Ewan ko kung guni guni ko lang, pero parang ang cute ni kit neito. Ang galing nya pa. Fit. At may taste pa sa sapatos.
Pag natapos ang pandemya lilipat na ko sa Cainta.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 10:33 PM.
My Avaya app stopped working today. For over 2 months, surely there were little issues here and there, pero ngayon lang to hindi gumana ng isang buong araw. Nag clear cache na ko, nag resetup na ko. Tinry ko na rin sa iba pang device, ayaw talagang gumana.
I was off work Thur-Fri, yet needed to report for at least 2 hrs each day for the training. Nakakapanghina ng loob sa hirap. Sabi ng kasama ko sa team, sa sobrang hirap daw napanaginipan nya na daw yung training. Takte, me too! Hirap na hirap akong matulog these days sa kaba sa mga susunod na mangyayari.
I did ask the Heavens for help. Kasi hindi ko na talaga alam gagawin ko. I wonder if my broken Avaya is the Heavens way of helping me out. Syempre hindi ko parin alam. May usap usapan daw ng pagbabalik office for some people. With my Avaya not working, natatakot ako na baka bigla nalang akong papasukin. Ayoko pumasok, buwis-buhay from Bulacan to Quezon City. I have parents who are senior citizens. I have a kitten and 3 dogs. I can't risk passing the virus to them. Pero takte, ako lang ang inaasahan samin para sa panggastos.
Sighs. Hindi ko naman na talaga control ang mga bagay na to. Ang tanging option ko lang e to have faith... then let go.
Bahala ka na sa akin, Universe.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 09:53 PM.
12:01mn. 1 minute past Cinderella's curfew.
In 12 hours, I'll start with my new work shift. Mejo nakakakaba.
I just finished watching Howl's Moving Castle. It's the first Studio Ghibli film na napanood ko na merong clear happy ending. Found a Japanese version with English subs. I think this is the closest I can get with my Japanese language studies.
Around 12 hrs back, I woke up in my brother's message about my nephew's newborn screening results. Our baby boy got an "out of normal range" in one of the tests. I've researched what it meant. Sabi, no cure. Need na ng support for life. May lead to anaemia. They'll be seeing the doctor tomorrow. I know it could be worse. Pero sana parin, mali lang ang test. Sana ok parin si Kyler.
Also found out that a friend have tested positive in COVID. I feel so sorry for her, specially for her children. Wala naman daw syang nararamdaman, well, aside from emotional distress, that is. Ang hirap ng panahon na ito. Sobra. I feel sorry. I feel scared. It's hard to feel so many things at the same time.
Hindi ko ni lu look forward ang pasok ko bukas ( technically, mamaya). Nasanay na rin ako na tulog sa umaga at gising sa gabi. Kinakabahan din ako dahil hindi ako familiar sa process ng Japanese users since I've had very few of them sa night shift. Alam ko, marami pang tao na may mas malaking problema kesa sakin.
Sa mga panahon na hindi ako natatakot o nag-aalala, nararamdaman ko rin naman yung gratitude. Alam ko naman na kahit maraming hindi magagandang nangyayari, naa outweigh parin ng good things ang mga bad things sa buhay ko. Siguro kailangan ko lang talagang matutunang kumalma.
My friend said COVID testing costed her 8k for the 1st test. She needs to undergo 2 more tests na dapat mag negative na this time, to get cleared. That will be 24k pesos for all 3 tests. Iniisip ko tuloy kung may sapat ba kong pera pag may nagkasakit samin.
Hindi na ko aabsent ulet. Kailangang makaipon.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 12:32 AM.
Past 12mn na nung bumalik ang kuryente. Humupa na ang bagyo. Balik na naman ang alinsangan ng panahon, at nagbago ang isip ng aming local government at pinromote muli kami sa mecq last minute bago ang supposed transition namin sa gcq.
Parang walang patutunguhan ang 2020.
Got the announcement kagabi sa bagong set of officers sa club. One of my ladies was elected for the highest position and they were like ako na daw susunod. For the past 3 years I've been dodging that position like a plague. This year, I went as far as postponing my membership renewal just to make sure I won't get elected. I feel like they still don't get it.
With this, all my friends are either a past president or a current president na. Normal lang siguro na hindi nila ma gets why I don't want it. Ako nga rin, hindi ko gets. Lol.
Last night, Ivan was asking if I'll renew na, now that the new officers have been announced. I hate explaining my shit, and I feel like these people keep on making me feel like I have to explain my shit. This is making me feel all the more wanting to extract myself off their circle. Maybe they mean well. Siguro mawawala rin tong feeling na to pag humupa na yung irita feeling na nararamdaman ko.
Sighs. Parang walang dereksyon ang buhay.
Siguro ang priority lang naman talaga natin dapat sa panahon na to e keeping ourselves alive.
I want to find a way to feel more alive these days.
I've been on full defensive mode. Naiirita ko sa lahat ng kumakausap sakin kahit online lang. The very few times na pumatol ako sa simpleng kamustahan, nairita lang rin ako. Maybe they didn't mean it that way pero feeling ko kasi tunuturuan nila ko kung paano ako dapat mabuhay. I hate that. I really hate that.
Pero sa kabila ng di matapos tapos na rebulusyon sa isip ko, thankful parin ako na ok kaming lahat.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 03:24 PM.
I should've slept few hrs ago as I'll be on an 8p-5a shift later. I ended up finishing up to ep 9 of this kdrama I'm watching. The female lead is a lawyer. So at the dining table kanina I told Mom I'd study law. I think my parents have had enough of my confusing life plans.
Red alert today, I'm having cramps. Ayoko sanang pumasok. Sana walang calls.
An acquaintance posted on fb that she's selling parts of her land in quezon. 50k, 100sqm. Sa 100k, i can buy a big enough land for a small house and s little garden. But if I want to build a farm, how much land do I need?
Minsan ang sarap magpakalayu layo no? Maiba lang.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 05:18 PM.
Just got home and couldnt help but cry because Gigi is no longer here to greet me. This is the first time that I cried since Mom texted me na wala na si Gigi yesterday. I miss my Gigi so much.
Ilang minutes palang ako nakakaupo sa sofa when sis-in-law texted Mom that she needs to be admitted in the hospital daw. The doc said that if her BP will keep on going higher, sis-in-law might need to deliver my nephew prematurely.
Then there's Dad's operation to be scheduled for on Monday. I'll only recieve 1-day pay for the next cut off.
Ok lang. Kaya to. Pero pwede, wag naman sunod sunod, Universe.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 03:40 PM.
Lifted na ang travel ban sa Taiwan. Learned from Mel that their company is considering na wag na ituloy ang self-quarantine nila. I asked the boss if ako rin ba. Said he'll ask the Manager on Monday. Sa totoo lang, I'd love to rest some more. Tinatamad lang talaga akong mag file ng sickness benefit application sa SSS at umaasa parin ako na baka mahabol ko pa yung stats ko para sa shift bid on March.
3rd day of house arrest (self-quarantine). Nag plano ako kung paano ako magda diet. Sinimulan ko na rin mag stationary bike for 30 minutes. Bad trip lang, naisipang mang libre ng kapatid ko. Nung lunch nagpa lechong manok sya. Hindi ako na apektohan bilang hindi naman ako kumakain ng hayop. Kaso nung meryenda, nagpa cassava cake at palabok sya. Oh well, I'll start again tomorrow. Gusto ko pag balik ko sa work, sexy na ko. Please help me, Universe.
Mel, who is also in house arrest, e nagyayayang mag jogging. Ayoko magjogging. Nakakapagod. So sabi ko mag Sagada nalang kami, or Baguio, o kaya magpa tattoo kay Wang Od. Kahit ano basta wag lang kami mag jogging She said yes to Sagada. Syempre nag jo-joke lang naman ako. Goodness, diet na diet kaya ang wallet ko ngayon. Ni hindi nga ako makapuntang SM.
Na surprise ako sa naging expenses namin sa Taiwan. Mga 30% lang ng total budget ko ang nagamit namin. Tatlo na kami non. And we were eating lavishly most of the time (though there were times na nag 7-11 lang kami or kaya nag tinapay because we didn't have much time). I have a few dollars left from our trip, may pera naman talaga ko. Hindi nga lang peso. Sayang rin kasing ipapalit. Bababa na ang value.
E kung tumuloy kaya akong Sagada? After ng hassle na nai cause ko sa boss ko with this trip, hindi ko alam kung mapapayagan pa ko sa matagalang leave next time. Hindi ko rin sure kung may leave credits pa ko. Feeling ko ito nalang ang chance kong makagala ng matagal.
Andami kong time!!! Wooohooo! Sana tuloy ang quarantine. Sana bayaran parin ng SSS ang leaves ko. Sana magkaron ng milagro sa shift bid at makuha ko parin ang gusto kong shift.
Nalinis ko na ang kwarto ko. Sunod kong gagawin e magbasa ng libro. May nabasa akong article na may book daw si Dean Koontz nung 80s pa kung saan accidentally e parang na predict nya ang pagkalat ng virus sa Wuhan ngayon. Wuhan-400 ang tawag nila sa virus dun sa book. Kaka download ko lang. Malapit ko na matapos yung isang chapter. Si Dean Koontz e isa sa mga paboritong authors namin nung college. Nagkalat ang Dean Koontz books na sumicirculate sa section namin noon. Marami kasing Dean Koontz books sa Book Sale at yun lang ang afford namin dati. Funny we can afford more expensive books now... but for some reason, we don't read as much anymore. Hindi ko masasabing dahil busy kami ngayon. We were engineering students. Boy, we were more than busy. Feeling ko nga mas busy pa kami back then kesa ngayon. Siguro sadyang naiiba lang ang priority natin as we grow older.
Siguro kailangan kong mag low-internet diet para maging productive.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 09:48 PM.
Shift bid over. I landed at the 5th rank but somehow managed to get the shift I want. 9AM-6PM. With this I'll be able to attend out Friday meetings sa club on time...
Then I realized, we're back to 1st, 3rd and 5th Friday sched, which means I'll only be able to attend on the 3rd Friday because I'll be in Taiwan during the 1st. I will have to endure waking up early and very little sleep all for 1 night of our meeting. What the eff. Pero ok lang din. Iniisip ko kung paano ko maitatawid ang schedule ko on March. Wala namang ganap nyan. I think I can take the worst sched, but still~
Ang daming opinyon ng mga tao sa social media re nCoV. Others think against racism sa mga Chinese, saying they are humans too and victims of the virus. Others think we are just overreacting. Others defend that by saying that we act this way because we care. Yung iba naman, Pinoy daw muna, Pilipino muna, and all these "be nice to Chinese" sheeesh are all BS daw.
Pag babad ka sa social media and hirap na hanapin kung ano ba yung raw opinyon mo sa mga bagay bagay. Yung hindi na sulsulan lang ng mga posts na nababasa mo.
Ang alam ko lang,
1. We should do our best to protect ourselves and our family. I've long stopped depending on the government for protection because they always lose their backbone everytime the issue involves China.
2. If you feel sorry for Chinese people, go ahead, be sorry. But do not allow your emotion to cloud your logic and start thinking that we should start embracing their virus-laden presence in our country. And UTANG NA LOOB, stop spreading that #notoracism bullshit because this is a time for our people to highten our vigilance. Yung lecheng nag post tungkol sa pamilyang Chinese na nagpaubayang mahuli sa pagsakay sa elevator should've joined them instead. I mean, no hard feelings. I feel sorry that they came from China and they're probably sick, pero takte, wag mo kami hawaan. Lol. HINDI TAMANG NANDITO SILA SA PILIPINAS SAMANTALANG SARILI NILANG BANSA HINDI SILA TINATANGGAP. No to racism your face. Hindi sila dapat nandito.
3. Wag mag panic. That won't help. Do your best. Stay informed.
Ilang linggo na kong nakatambay sa website ng Earthclinic. May contributor dun from Thailand na isang gifted naturopath. The last I heard of him e he had a stroke daw. I wonder what he would've prescribed at a time like this na may epidemya. I searched for the website's archive for his posts regarding SARS and MERS. Now I'm headed to buy the supplements he recommended. Hindi naman talaga ako takot sa nCoV. But I'm not taking chances and let it hit my family. (If you're interested, go to earthclinic.com, type "SARS" on the search box, and click the tab for "Ted's Q&A").
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Written by cinderellaareus at 10:49 AM.