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Tuck Forever after
土曜日: June 19, 2021



Been having thoughts about death and stuff. I remember an old book I had. Tuck Everlasting. I don't remember everything from the book, only the part where the girl gave her elixir to a toad to save it forever, thinking that she could anytime get another elixir from the fountain. The elixir was from a boy. He and his family own the fountain, and they all became immortal after drinking the water from it. The boy gave that bottle of elixir to the girl. She's supposed to drink it once she's 17. They promised to meet again. Kamalasan, after nyang ibigay sa toad, tinamaan ng kidlat yung fountain the following day. When the boy came to see her again, ayun, deds na sya from old age.

Walang kinalaman sa moral lesson ng story. Naisip ko lang yung toad. I wonder if it's wise to make your pets immortal. Like, pano kung ma stuck sya sa meat grinder? He'd stay there in pain for all eternity without dying.

Naisip ko tuloy... we were all programmed to fear death. But if you look closely, maybe it's just nature's way of expressing it's kindness to those who suffer.

Tas naisip ko yung religion. Tas naisip ko rin, why do we badly want heaven to be real. Or reincarnation. I mean, can't one life be enough? If death happens to be the end itself, then, what's the big deal? Do we really need more lives?

Ewan ko. Religion makes me feel like I'm sinning whenever I question things. If God is really good, will He throw me to the fires of hell just because I asked for some clarifications?

Hindi ko alam. Hindi ko talaga alam.

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Watching Naruto. The subtitles suck. Lol, I need to rely on my Japanese skills most of the time. Average Shonen anime, pero nakakahook parin. Sexist pa. I hate how the author made Sakura and Ino lame heroines. Uraraka of My Hero Academia may not be as good as the main heroes of the anime, pero hindi siya katulad ni Sakura who just sit there getting rescued. I mean, look at Froppy, a female frog hero, pero she's rocking it. Kainis tong Naruto na to. Pero pinapanood ko pa rin. Lol. 

9 seasons. Nasa season 3 palang ako. Sana kumpleto itong nasa Netflix. Sad lang I can't watch it while avail at work, because I'm on VPN.

Pag natupad ko yung pangarap ko na maging mayaman enough to not work at all, ano kayang mangyayari sa buhay ko no? Uubusin ko pa rin kaya yung oras ko araw araw sa netflix?

I remember my theory on how I ended up not eating cheese cake anymore. Naniniwala ako na my body will find a way to kick me out of slumber after some time. Mehehe.

Kaya siguro drawn ako kay Shikamaru. Aliw na aliw ako sa character nya. Sobrang tamad. Lol. Still a genius through and through.

It frustrates me though. The kanji in Gaara's forehead means love. The kanji written in one of the sound village's genin means death. The kanji in 4th Hokage's hat means fire. I'm pretty sure all the other kanji in there were from basic n5 level. Hindi ko mabasa lahat. Kung alam ko lang na kakailanganin ko to ng ganito sana pala nag-aral ako ng maayos noon. I mean, these are kanjis you wouldn't learn from work, you know.



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Written by cinderellaareus at 07:59 AM.

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Deku
土曜日: June 12, 2021



Matatapos ko na yung 5 seasons ng My Hero Academia, di pa rin nadedeliver PC ko for work. I remember they once delivered before, oround 12 MN na. Still waiting. Makaka work na kaya ako bukas?

2 eps left. Bitin to for sure. Dapat talaga completed series lang ang pinapanood. It can be frustrating otherwise. This anime is good. The main character, Midoriya, reminds me of Gon ng Hunter X Hunter. 

I remember Injan and I were huge fans of HXH. I loved Killua, sya naman, so Hisuka ang bet. I'm pretty sure she'll like MHA too. I wonder kung sino sa mga characters ang bet nya. Mine is Kirishima. Todoroki too. I doubt if Injan can still watch anime these days though. 

Dapat around December nalang ako nanood neto. Now I have to wait weekly for new eps.

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Gusto kong makahanap ng bagay na gusto kong gawin. Something I'd be willing to work really hard for, and actually enjoy the process, hardships included.

Anime side-effect ba to? Tokwa.



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Written by cinderellaareus at 08:06 PM.

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PBG
土曜日: June 5, 2021



Saiki k live action was so bad even with Kento Yamazaki in it. Di ko na tinapos. Tried to watch Penthouse, pero masyadong masakit sa dibdib, so I watched Love In Moonlight instead. Natapos ko today, so I started watching Encounter. 

Walang hiya, ang adorable ni Park Bo Gum. Lumiliwag ang mundo ko pag nakikita ko sya. Bakit kaya may mga tao na yung looks e iisipin mong favorite siguro sila ni God, no? Lol.

Sa totoo lang, ang boring ng Encounter. Pero para sa ngiti ni Park Bo Gum, pinapanood ko parin. 

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Hindi ako nakapag work today. Sira PC. Need daw replace sabi ng IT. Nagrequest na ko to have it delivered sa bahay. Baka bukas pa ng hapon yun. Ang saya. Extended ang weekends ko tas with pay pa! Salamat, Universe!

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Alam mo, dama kong magaganda ang panaginip ko nitong mga nakaraang araw. Pero hindi ko naman talaga maalala.

Feeling ko, magiging maganda ang month of June ko.

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...Or baka side effect lang to sa kakatitig ko kay Park Bo Gum. >.<



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Written by cinderellaareus at 09:58 PM.

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Time Oras Jikan
土曜日: May 22, 2021



Work now. Relatively unbusy. In less than two hours, out na ko.

I miss my girl-friends from TM. Though we're still very active in group chat, nakakamiss na makasama sila sa mga TM-related adventures. Namimiss ko sumali at manood ng contest. I miss meeting new people. Parang ang interesting ng mga taong nami meet nila all over the world, now na naka online meeting na ang lahat. Ang pogi nung crush ng isa sa mga friends ko na TM from Japan. Single daw ata. Ayiiii!!!

Naalala ko tuloy si Saito. Una ko syang nakilala sa office pantry sa Main office namin sa Chiba. Nilalaro nya kasi yung bola nya ng soccer tas tinamaan ako sa paa. After nun nakipag kwentuhan na. Pogi kamo nun. Takte, ang dami kayang pogi sa kanila. Mejo nayabangan lang ako kay Saito kaya hindi ko sya siguro naging crush. Physically, sobrang perfect ang beauty nya sa taste ko. Si Shibuya-san ang naging crush ko non. Hindi sya kasing pogi, pero ang bait nya at mejo mahiyain. Kay Murakami-san ako madalas tuksihin ng lahat. Mejo naawa na nga ako sa taong yun. Sobrang lakas kasi mang asar ng mga kasama ko. Kamusta na kaya sila?

Ang tagal na panahon na pala ang lumipas. Ang dami nang nangyari. Nakakatuwa na ang dami paring magagandang memory na naiwan, kahit na yung mga tao na nasa memory ko, hindi ko na nakikita pa.

Gusto ko sana mag TM ulet. Kaso kahit wala akong pasok ng Friday, sobrang aga ng pasok ko the following day. Kaya ko naman magpuyat. But the cats sleep in my room. Kinukulong ko sila sa kwarto ko around 6pm tas lights off na by 8pm. Nakakaawa kasi pag nagbukas ako ng pinto sa umaga, tas humihikab pa sila. Sobrang nakakaawa. I want them to have enough sleep. Though they're bigger now, they're still kittens. Siguro may workaround naman. Bahala na. Mag-iisip ako.

Hayst. Nabobored ako. Kailangan ko ng konting challenge.



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Written by cinderellaareus at 02:31 PM.

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Saan punta?
土曜日: May 15, 2021



Dissatisfaction. Eto ata ang nararamdaman ko today. Maybe the same for these past years.

Pinanood ko ulet yung Slam Dunk. Hindi ko kasi yun nakompleto at paunti unti lang ang napanood ko dahil ata sa school. 70ish eps out of 101. Naalala ko ulet kung bakit ko pinangarap na matutong mag japanese at magpunta sa Japan. Tagalog dubbed yung pinanood ko. May mga part na naka Japanese at hindi naidub at wala ring subs. Nagbunga rin siguro ang mga pangarap, dahil naintindihan ko naman. Pati yung konting mali sa translation ng nakasulat sa title, nababasa ko rin. Olrayt di ba?

Nakakamiss yung mga panahon na meron pa akong pangarap. Yung seryosong pangarap talaga. Tipong handa kang isugal lahat pag nakakita ka ng opportunity na matupad yung pangarap mo.

Naalala ko dati, kaya ko gustong gusto ang mga anime kasi naiinspire akong mangarap at maging better. Gayang ngayong nanonood ako ng slam dunk. But it's so much different now though.

What can a 36 year old woman dream about?

I, too, had my own glorious days, you know. Hindi kasing dramatic ng pagkakapanalo ng Shohoku against Shoyo, but maybe a little close. What's even better was that they were real.

Saan ba nanggagaling ang dissatisfaction na ito?

Apparently, hindi pala talaga sa pera nasusukat ang success ng tao. Ang daming factor e.

Masaya ka ba sa ginagawa mo?

Masaya ba ang relationships mo?

Dama mo bang kapakipakinabang ka?

Napupunan mo ba financially ang mga pangangailangan mo at ng mga tao o bagay na mahahalaga sayo?

Siguro pag 'oo' ang sagot mo sa lahat ng ito, successful ka na ngang talaga.

Umupo ako nung isang araw para mag compute.

4% p.a. interest

12% tax (sa computation ko, nasa 15% ang totoong bawas).

Ilan ang need kong iinvest para magkaron ng kita mula sa interest na katumbas ng sahod ko para di na ko magtrabaho.

37M ang sagot. Kahit itabi ko pa kalahati ng sahod ko every month, it will take me 77 years para maka ipon ng 37M. Lol.

Hindi talaga investments lang ang sagot. Kailangan ko talaga ng cash flow.

Hindi rin siguro worth it na magtipid buong buhay mo. Ni hindi mo nga alam kung hanggang kelan ka mabubuhay. And for the same reason, ang sakit siguro to spend your life doing things you don't like to do just to earn money.

Ito ba yun? Yung source ng dissatisfaction? Hindi ko alam. It could also be my relationships. That department is in a really bad state at the moment.

Para ang poorly managed ng buhay ko these days.

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Nilipat ng TL namin ang work sched ko sa 6AM-3PM. Starting on Monday daw. Magugulo ang rhythm ng buhay namin ng mga alaga kong pusa. Sobrang aga. Bahala na.

Ano bang gusto kong gawin? Nung bata pa ko, siguradong sigurado ako sa mga bagay na gusto ko.

Makagraduate ng 5 years lang without extension sa college.

Makapasa sa board exam, 1 take.

Matuto ng foreign language.

Pumunta sa Japan.

Early 20s nung matupad ko lahat ng mga pangarap ko. Hindi madali. Hindi joke yung hirap na pinagdaanan ko, at ang daming beses din akong umiyak. Pero naalala ko na those days, ganado akong bumabangon kahit alam kong magiging mahirap ang araw na haharapin ko.

Kaya ba ko naiinis dahil masyado nang madali ang lahat? 

Hindi naman sa madali. Nahihirapan din naman ako sa trabaho. Ewan ko ba.

Siguro gusto ko lang ng direksyon.



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Written by cinderellaareus at 11:55 AM.

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土曜日: April 17, 2021



Spent my rest days sick.

My head was hurting, may ubo at sipon, at ang pinakanakakainis sa lahat e may pimple near my right nostril kaya ang hirap magpunas ng sipon. Lol. TMI. Everytime na nasasangga ko to, gumuguhit ang sakit along my  nose, up to my forehead paikot sa batok. Maybe that was why I felt more sick that I actually was.

I hate getting sick. Especially at a time like this. I did all possible measures to get well based sa recommendation ng isang biochemist na natagpuan ko sa Earthclinic. The recommendations are far from normal. At times, I feel like I'm poisoning myself, but judging from how I got well after 2 days instead of the usual 2 weeks without meds, or a week with it, sa tingin ko magaling talaga sya. Also, I have ailments that the doctors were not able to cure, pero napagaling ng mga recommendations nya. Ang the items I need are always low cost, sometimes we already have at home.

He hasn't been on EarthClinic for years though. The last time I heard, he had stroke ata. Heard he has gotten better pero hindi pa rin sya bumabalik sa EC. I wonder what he'll recommend for COVID. I took notes on his recommendations for Ebola, Sars and bird flu. I'm taking some on preventive level.

Parang gusto ko tuloy mag aral ng biochem. Habang online pa lahat ng classes, I think this should be the best time.



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Oh night divine
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土曜日: April 10, 2021



On an emotional low today. Alam mo ba, I told my divorcee friend who seeks to find a new love na divine mercy feast bukas at bubuksan ng Langit ang floodgate ng Kanyang mercy, kaya sabi ko, ipagdasal nyang magka lovelife. Sabi nya 12mn palang magdadasal na sya. lol.

I've been feeling exceptionally low today. Sa totoo lang, masyadong magulo ang isip ko para humanap ng love life. 

I want to have my own place soon. Maybe Dad will come with me. He's equally sick of this too. I don't know if Mom will. And of course, I probably can't afford just yet. Or maybe I can, but that would mean that I need to go back from scratch sa pagpupundar para sa future ko. Siguro konting tiis pa.

Basta. Bahala na.

May sakit pala ang TL namin. Kaya pala ang quiet nya sa GC. Hope it's nothing serious. I'd probably add this to my Feast of Divine Mercy list. And to check if magkakatotoo nga, I think I should write it down here:

1. Healthy, wealthy, long and happy life for me, mama, papa, and the rest of my family, kasama ang cats, kittens and dogs namin.

2. Makauwi na samin ng safe and healthy si Jiufen at Gen-gen agad agad.

3. Mag thrive kami ng aking pamilya sa kabila ng pandemic.

4. Manatili kaming ligtas sa alin mang sakuna at kalamidad. Mailayo kami sa lahat ng masama.

5. Patuloy at higit pa kaming kumita ng mas marami pang pera. Gusto kong magkaraoon ng net passive income na 2 million pesos per month.

6. Sana makasama ko pa sila mama at papa nang matagal hanggang sa may asawa na si Kaitlyn and beyond.

7. Sana maging laging in good terms ako sa mga kasama at nakakasalamuha ko sa trabaho. Sana lalo pa ako mapalapit sa kanila at mapamahal sa trabaho ko. Sana I'll get to keep this job as long as I want, at lalo pang lumaki ang sweldo ko at dumali ang trabaho.

8. Sana lumaking healthy at happy at mababait ang lahat ng mga pusa ko. Sana wag silang mawala sakin at manatili silang safe lagi.

9. Sana mapuno ng love, joy, peace at harmony ang aming family.

10. That I'll always feel loved, favored and well taken care of kahit ano pa ang relationship status ko.

11. Ma reclaim ng Pilipinas ang lahat ng aming isla, at mailuklok sa posisyon lahat ng best people, and best people only, para sa posisyon.

12. Patuloy nyo po kaming gabayan, protektahan at alagaan araw araw—ako, ang aking pamilya, kasama ang mga tao at hayop na mahalaga sa akin.

13. Sana walang calls at chats the whole day today and tomorrow.

14. Maging sobrang galing ako sa nihongo, native level.

15. Complete healing for TL Allan.

Well, let's see...

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Alam mo ba, bilib na bilib ako kay VP Leni. Grabe kasi sobrang... she's such a rare gem in politics. Same with Vico Sotto. It's been a long while since we had leaders like these. Sana naman mabigyan ng chance ang Pilipinas to have a person like her to be the highest leader in the country.

Sana talaga.



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Written by cinderellaareus at 11:16 PM.

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Kurushi
土曜日: April 10, 2021



My heart hurts.

Tomorrow will be the Feast of Divine Mercy. Sabi bubuksan daw ang floodgates of Mercy ng Langit sa araw na ito.

Sana maawa ang Langit at ibalik nya sakin ang pusa ko. Mga pusa, including Gen-gen.



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Opinyon at kuro kuro
土曜日: April 3, 2021



Iniisip ko lang...

If we adopt and rescue puspins, do we really have to hate those who buy furry ones na may breed? Is it really fair to say na hindi sila animal lover because they opted to buy instead of adopt?

Tapos, if you chose to live a meat-free lifestyle, do you really have to look down on those who eat meat?

Our family adopt and rescue cats and dogs and feed strays. I've been full pescetarian for 2 years now, yet I still feel like there's something wrong about common arguments like these.

Sa totoo lang, gusto ko ng french bulldog. Or any bulldog. Ang cute cute kasi. Parang ang cute din ng beagle.

Hindi ako masyadong interested sa cats na may breed. Mukha kasing higad. Hahaha. I think the cutest cat breed is the puspin. Or maybe I'm just biased. Lol.

Siamese cats are also cute. I met one when I was living in Manda and she always visited me at my place. Madalas ayaw nya na umuwi.

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Back to work on a Black Saturday. Mejo naiinggit ako sa may 4-day long weekend. Well, mejo lang naman.



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