土曜日. August 12, 2017

Dear Crush, I am good.

One down. Isa sa mga problema ko ay natapos na.

So i served as a test speaker today for the area contest of areas 1, 3, 5 and 6. First time to be evaluated by 11 people in one sitting. May mga humabol pa nga ng evaluations after the contest. Nakauwi na ko ng bahay at lahat, meron paring humabol ng evals via messenger. Nakakaliw.

I was once a contestant too so alam ko dapat kinder ako. Pero kasi hindi ako nakapag lunch kanina at gutom na gutom na ko kaya lumilipad yung kilay ko paminsan minsan sa ibang evaluators.

One mentioned about Malcolm gladwell and assumed i read his book.

I didn't.

One assumed i am a CC and the speech i delivered was from an advanced project.

It wasn't an advanced project and im not yet a cc.

One called me Cha.

Another called me Sha.

Another one didn't even know my name and called me "the toastmaster". Weird.

One kept on gesturing towards where i WAS and never hitted my actual place.

I would be more understanding if i wasnt so hungry.

Natutunan ko na being evaluated by that many people pala was no joke. My head started pulsating after the 5th evaluator. 

Pero sulit naman. Nandun kasi yung crush ko. Bakit ba nagiging sulit lang ang kahit anong hassle pag may lalaking involved no? Lol.

Anyway, he was my first Toastmaster crush back when i wasn't a toastmater yet. Yang and i first saw the guy the first time we visited a TM club as guests. I didn't join that club but i remember, he was the GE then, and i was mezmerized.

Simple, effortless at ang gentle tingnan at pakinggan. After a few research (aka online stalking), nalaman ko na, wow, maka Diyos din sya. Smart, magaling na speaker tapos maka Diyos pa. Super perfect! Only, nalaman ko rin na merong konting problema....

Married sya. Hahaha. Magpapamember sana ko sa club nya nun kaso exclusive daw club nila and hindi open to all so i ended up in my club now.

And so, ayun nga, contest. Kita ko yung name nya sa contestants and i was like, "OMG! Yung crush ko!"

Tagal ng hinintay ko, men... 3rd to the last speaker sya e. Pero sulet. Sarap nya parin pakinggan. Ang gentle. Parang ang bait. I was like, "i-uwi ko na kaya to?" Hahahaha... Hayyyyy crush.

Nakakatawa na for the last 5 years, consistent ako. Laging sa dalawang klase lang ng lalaki ako nagkakainteres. Kundi bading, married. Haha. Pero sigurado akong wala akong gagawin, because i am good.

I am good.

I am good.

I am good.

Powerful daw ang words at pag paulit ulit mo daw na sinabi ang isang bagay, malaki ang chance na magka totoo.

I am good.

I am good.

I am good.

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I asked LA to invite crush to be our GE in one of our following meetings. But he'll be competing with gabby and we have to keep our aces on our sleeves as Gabby said, so baka matatagalan pa. Ok lang. 

Division contest in a few more weeks. I'm pretty sure Gabby will win, pero excited parin akong makita si crush ba bigyan sya ng good fight.

Also, kanina, kahit mahiyain akong tao, i asked crush for a selfie. Keribels. Hindi nya naman ako laging makikita e. Kakainis lang ang pangit ng kuha. Hindi ko tuloy mapost at nang maitag ko sya sa fb (yes, na-add ko yung crush ko sa FB!!! Gosh, I'm so brave...). Kakaunti lang ang picture ko na kasama ang someone na crush ko. Takte pa, kahit isa yata walang maayos dun.

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In-injan kami ni jay at jer so it was just LA and I. We ate our super late lunch after the contest and had our lengthy kwentuhan. I'm so happy that LA was there. Kung wala siguro sya, baka umiyak nalang ako dun. Hahaha.

I told LA of this dude who's a TM from another club. I needed to ask her if it's normal for that dude to constantly chat with another TM. Hindi daw. I told her how the dude is off limits and my reason on why i plan to keep him around.

I know it's hard to accept my unconventional reasoning. I'm just glad that instead of being preachy and all, LA always seem to understand. She's such a wonderful human being.

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So yun... 1 down. Isa nalang ang problema ko. BSP9. Oh help me, Lord.


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