Sunday pala ngayon. My brains felt like it's Saturday. I don't have work tomorrow, I'm going on vacation.
The weekends had been long. Yesterday, I killed 10k plus to fund my business. Yehey, wala na naman akong pamasahe. Lol. Naalala ko bigla lahat ng may utang saken. Haha.
Today, I spent the day taking pictures of my products for fb marketing. I didn't know taking pictures could take this much time. I'm not even halfway done.
I also met with a customer earlier and I realized, meron rin pala akong trust issues. Lol.
Teka, tinatamad na ko magkwento.
11:18pm. I'm sleepy, but my room's a mess. Taking photos requires so much props, I wonder if I should just hire a photog for my own sanity.
Eto na naman tayo. Namimiss na naman kita. Iniisip ko kung kelan ba nagsimula 'to because the last thing I remember was that I'm into someone else. Parang walang transistion. Basta bigla ka nalang sumulpot.
When the year started, I tried writing a daily journal containing the list of the things I'm thankful for and the list of the things that I wish for. Ibang pangalan pa ang nasa list of wish ko dun. As far as I can remember, I didn't see you the same way then.
But I noticed though that you're name was always written in my thank you list. Nakakainis na sa tamad ko magsulat, walang details kung bakit ako thankful sayo. Basta nandun lang ang pangalan mo. Ang weird na hindi ko rin talaga maalala.
Siguro sa mga little favors, or baka yung mga times na napangiti ako sa simpleng banat mo. Siguro yung presence. Maliliit na bagay na nag accumulate at maging fondness, na nag grow into liking and then developed into what it is right now.
Sabi nila, love is an action word. Ngayon naiintindihan ko na.
Namimiss na kita.
Low drama akong tao. Ayoko naman talaga ng mga mushy na bagay. Pero sa tingin ko, kung aalisin ang feelings at iiiwan ko lang ang logic, convinced ako na we can make a good pair.
May mga tao who seek a love that will make their hearts skip a bit. Where they can feel the high, the adrenaline rush. With their hearts pounding inside their chest, and butterflies in their stomachs.
Pero hindi naman kasi ako adventurous the tao. I prefer calm over adrenaline rush. I'd rather have stillness and peace, than hear the crazy pounding inside my chest. Silence, calm, comfort, home.
I think, what I seek is a love that feels like home. Sa tingin ko, that was what I found in you...
Pero baka hindi rin. Ewan ko.
Ok lang rin naman.
I'm fine naman on my own.
Sa tingin ko, sadyang namimiss lang kita.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 11:52 PM.
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