Infey, natouch ako rito.
It's been a while since I last attended a TM meeting. There's a lot of new faces and kung tutuusin, even before my frequent absences, outnumbered naman na talaga kami ng mga newbies.
Bilang hardcore introvert, I found talking to strangers quite draining. But then, come to think of it, my friends now were also strangers to me before. Sabi nga dun sa nabasa ko, wala naman daw talagang strangers, only potential friends. Whenever I see new members silent in their seats with no one to talk to, it kind of makes me feel sorry. Maybe I can do better as their sempai no?
Mukhang dadalas na naman ang absence ko though. Dad will be needing to undergo an operation next week. Nothing serious, but he will need at least 1 week rest after that. Meaning hindi nya ko masusundo after work. Which means, Mom will. Which again means, bawal na magpagabi ng husto. Parang high school lang. Lol. But I'm not complaining.
There are things I'm trying not to think about. I know my own tendency to overthink. It's easy to search for evidences to prove your suspicions. Malay mo nga naman... baka kasi mahal ka pa. Pero sa tingin ko, ang pinaka matibay na ebidensya sa lahat e yung presence nya. If he's not there, then most probably, he doesn't. And come on, why should it matter?
Ok na. I still can't look, pero okay na.
Naisip ko lang, why focus on people who are so far away and overlook those who are just there? Between a man and a woman, hindi naman siguro kailangan na laging romantic ang pagmamahal.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 06:27 PM.
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