There were a lot of things going on, I didn't have much time to think of anything else. And so when everything subsided, I once again looked. And there it was—a ring.

I'm still trying to process how I feel about it. Do I have to feel something about it? It's just that, sometimes I still wonder if he ever remember anything... anything thing at all... about me... I don't know.

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I will be staying at a house near work by next week. I haven't prepared anything yet. Heck, I haven't even packed. I just confirmed my attendance to our yearend party tomorrow, and I said I'll be attending the meeting tonight. Okay naman. After nito, huhupa na ang lahat ng gulo at hindi ko na alam kung anong gagawin ko sa napakarami kong time.

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At Tito's wake a few days back, my wealthiest Tita was there. I was once again lectured on how people from the same industry that I graduated from are earning so much more than I do and how it's "sayang" that I'm not using my education. I wasn't offended whatsoever. I just wanted to show her I can't be intimidated, so I said, "kahit di ko pa gawin yan, kahit ibaliktad nyo pa ko, matalino parin naman ako," I know they can never contest to that. But in the end of the day, I know that's all just a pathetic excuse.

Alam ko rin may point si Tita. I know she meant well. At kahit mejo magaspang ang ugali nya, I know her heart is in the right place. She once told me why she had done and has been doing everything in her power to earn a lot of money. Her reasons are noble. Ayoko lang na may nagsasabi sakin ng kung anong dapat na ginagawa ko sa buhay ko. And I think she can't really blame me. I'm just like her.

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Gusto ko sanang sabihin ang hirap maging masaya pag adult ka na, but I think that's not entirely true. Kung tutuusin, a lot of things are making me happy lately. There is this someone who's making me happy lately. Pero, takte, same old fu*cking situation. 

Maybe we all just get what we settled for.

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