Hello, World! It's a Monday and I'm gonna be back to work tomorrow. Things were going great until I heard things I didn't want to hear.
Not love life related:
"Do not take things personally."
I've known this line for a long time. Nakakainis pag may nararamdaman kang mga bagay na ayaw mong maramdaman. Surely, you can just push the feelings aside and pretend you're not feeling them, pero putek... alam mo yung feeling na najejebs ka pero pinipigilan mo? Parang ganun yun e. Healthy ba yun?
I asked the Heavens to make me stop feeling this way... tapos, Dude, instantly gratified sya by the Universe.
Some sort of bad news arrived. Partner sent his resignation and it was immidiate. I'm all good. I can manage alone. It's just that I'll be needing to take leaves from time to time and now that will be harder since my work requires having at least 1 person to be present. Now that 1 person means me. No one else. Thank you very much.
Pero ok lang din. Teamlead said we'll talk about my leaves tomorrow. Bahala na ulet. I'm bonded until June. I can't just disappear. Bukod don, wala parin talaga akong maraming pera para mabuhay nang hindi nagtatrabaho. So again, bahala na.
Love life related:
Ayoko na rin talagang i-entertain ang drama. Ayoko na rin patulan ang jokes ng Universe na hindi naman nakakatawa. Takte, nasa isang side ako ng taal, tas yung kasal nya nasa kabilang side lang. Whattheeff. Pero sige. Ok na. Patahimikin na naten ang mga taong lumagay na sa tahimik. Sa tingin ko kaya lang ako ok kasi may nagugustuhan akong iba.
So there is this boy I've been eyeing lately. He's quite innocent in many things, but really matured when it comes to understanding. I like how he's such a good man and on how he's always working to be better. I've known him for quite some time. About 3 years na siguro. Ewan ko.
Natuwa lang kasi ako sa kanya the last time na magkita kami. Nakakatuwa yung reaction nya pag nahihiya sya and I like how I can laugh all our awkward moments off.
I like listening to his plans. Or yung mga bagay na nilu-look forward nya sa future. Or the things he's passionate about at the moment. Sometimes I wish I can go all out and support him, pero syempre pe-preno ako to ask, "bakit, why, bakit"? Hindi tayo mag jowa, are we friends? Lol. Sa aming dalawa, walang ni isang bumanggit ng salitang 'friends' for these past three years. Takte, we're not friends.
Or are we? Ewan ko. Sana pwede ko nalang itanong. Tas kung ano man ang sagot, no hard feelings, ganun. Lol. Ewan.
April 28 this year ang Feast of Divine Mercy. Sabi ibubuhos daw ni Jesus ang floodgates ng Kanayang Awa sa araw na yun. If the Heavens will allow me, hihingi ako ng love life, syempre. Pero bukod dun, I want to ask Jesus for healing. Our dog, Gigi, is still sick. Hindi ko alam kung aabot pa sya sa Feast of Divine Mercy.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 09:23 PM.