A few days ago, Ms. Mayi posted in FB abt their weekend where she, her hubby, and their daughter who's a toddler, were just eating popcorn while watching random movies on tv. Her husband said, "ang boring ng buhay natin, no," and followed, "I like it boring," to which, she smiled.

Universe, isang Doc Didoy nga, please. XD

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It's been months since I rented this place, 5 minutes tryk ride to the office. I intended to stay for only 3 months, but I'm liking it so far, so it looks like I'm staying.

I had a boring day yesterday. The kind of boring that I really like. I went home to my place, opened a huge bag of crab crackers and 2 cans of beer. I bought a bag full of ice tubes and sat on the floor having the best boring day of my life.

Sabi sa narinig kong talk, singleness daw is a season of life. And each season daw ng buhay naten has it own gifts, and we need to savor those gifts instead of rushing to the next season. I think I'm getting the message.

The longer I live alone here, the more I'm liking my season of singleness. But with that, I'm also more convinced that I'm really fit for marriage.

Because I know I don't need marriage to make me happy. I already am. I don't need marriage to gain stability. Because I'm already stable. I want marriage because I know I have value. And I seek someone who can add to that value so that together we can build something that is more than both our values combined. In a book I've read, they call that "synergy". When the resulting value of a union is more than their separate values combined.

Like in my family, when my dad married my mom, the equation was 1+1. Then my brother and I came along, so that became 1+1=4. When my brother got married, and my niece came along, our equation became 1+1=4+1=6. That's how synergy works. At least from how I see it. Lol.

I don't know if my equation will change in time, or if I'll remain to be "1". I don't know if singleness is just a season of life for me, or my entire life actually. I'm pretty sure I will be fine if that happens, but I still want to give it a try. Sana tulungan ako ng Langit.

It gets a little lonely sometimes, you know. And when you're lonely, it's hard to think clearly, and even harder to fight off human urges.

My mom was a virgin when she got married. She was quite a looker so it was probably harder for her at that time. My brother and his wife were both virgins too when they got married. If I am to have children in the future, I want them to look up to me the way I look up to my mother.

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There is this professional relationship coach that I follow in FB. The contents are very helpful and most of these are targeted for women.

If I will one day have a daughter, I will invest on her education as a woman. As early as 12, I will teach her what I know about men. And once she's 20, I will hire her a coach or send her to seminars. 

Between my brother and I, I know I'm not my mother's favorite. Still, I wonder how she felt about having a daughter. Maybe having a son would be nice too, but I think raising another girl would be different, because it would be like seeing yourself right from the beginning and wanting to make it better this time around. 

Kung bibigyan ako ng langit ng pagkakataong bumuo ng sarili kong pamilya, ilalambing ko na sana bigyan Nya rin ako ng anak na babae.

*pero pwede po ba, lalaki ang panganay?* lol.

08:18 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。

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