These past few days had been a rollercoaster ride. One moment, sigurado na ko sa gagawin ko, and then the next, my gut feel would once again decide against it. Pwede kayang magpatangay nalang ako sa agos? Di ba sabi ni Bruce Lee, "be like water"?
A couple of weeks more and June will be over. Ang labo parin ng kinabukasan ko.
Was at the rookies induction earlier. I had a little convo with my seatmate who is an ECE grad. Said he didn't make it to licensure exam and it got him heartbroken. He worked in Singapore, now working in sales at a water company where one of my college friends is working as an engineer. I told him we almost have the same story, yung labo labo yung career path?
Yesterday, I met a woman who was an entertainer in an omise in Tokyo. She has a 3-year old half-Japanese son and was married to a Japanese by an arranged marriage, but they got divorced. Since there's no divorce here in the Philippines, she's still carrying her former husband's surname. She's now trying her luck in finding a normal job. Said she had to leave her job as a mamasang in Makati because she had to take care of her kid. Her worry is that, she never had a formal education.
Most times, I've been feeling down-hearted these days, pero natuwa ako na nameet ko tong mga taong to. Naisip ko lang na lahat naman ata tayo may struggles sa buhay, at siguro ayun yung nagpapaganda sa mga kwento natin.
Pero syempre pag ikaw yung right at the point of struggling, mahirap naman talagang isipin tong mga bagay na to.
I have 1 more ace left. Pag wala parin to, hindi ko na alam.
Siguro nga magiging maayos din naman ang lahat, pero pwede bang mai-fastforward nalang ako dun sa time na yun?
Lord, can you give me a hug?
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Written by cinderellaareus at 09:30 PM.