Another call. Lahat ng ayaw ko sa setup ng trabaho nasa kanila except sa location. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ba ko umoo to go to the interview. Sayang pamasahe. Takte, laki na ng nagagastos ko sa grab. Itigil ko na kaya to?
I'm feeling worse day by day I'm starting to wonder if I need to see a doctor already. I feel so bad most of the time, it no longer feels normal.
Will be seeing Injan next week. She's one of my most favorite human beings. I remember when we were in highschool, sa taong iyon ako laging umiiyak. Sya ang paborito kong iyakan at pagsabihan ng problema. Hindi kasi sya nag re-react. Uupo lang sya do'n with a neutral look on her face and wouldn't bother to offer any advice whatsoever. I love her for that. Pagkatapos kong umiyak, nagagawa na naming magkwentuhan at magtawanan na parang walang nangyari. Kaya naman paborito ko si Injan.
I guess I need someone who will hear me right now. I know Injan is the only one perfect for the job. I'm sure she wouldn't attempt to console me, or offer solutions I don't even need. I wonder why other people do that- you ask for their ears and they'll give you more things to think about. I think Injan is the only one who get it.
I was reading Neri Miranda's post about her son. Siguro nasa sensitive mode lang ako ngayon, pero naiyak lang ako sa post nya. So sweet that boy.
Damn, I really want to build my own family already. But instead that, I spend my time fixing my life, I can't even reply to the messages from the dating app.
Gaano pa ba ako kalayo sa mga bagay na gusto kong makuha? I wish I can take a peek on the future para at least I know whether what I want is really up in the horizon. Kasi kung hindi, at least I can already move on to something else. Talaga bang tayo ang pumipili ng future na gusto natin?
Maybe this is just PMS.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 12:36 PM.