Sighs. Feeling ko alam ko na ang magiging kahihinatnan ng lahat ng ito.
2 calls. 1 emails. Countless text messages.
There is this company who's practically giving me the coverage of the exam. I clearly told them I don't have any background in those topics. They told me to just get through it until I progressed to the interview.
Ayoko ng nightshift. Siguro kaya ko naman. Ayoko lang. Gusto ko umattend ng club meeting. Gusto kong umuwi sa bahay pag Sabado at Linggo. Gusto ko mag leave paminsan minsan para mamasyal, o kaya sa KCON on November. At tsaka pag kailangan kong mag pitch sa mga company to offer financial consulting.
Tingin ko, alam ko na ang magiging kahihinatnan nito.
Was backreading old posts from 6 years ago and it reminded me na wala pala akong pinasang exam nung nag-apply ako sa company na to. Kahit nga medical, muntik ko nang ibagsak. My 1st x-ray showed my heart was enlarged. False alarm lang naman. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ako na hire. I can only think that it's probably Meguri. If only he's working as a QM somewhere...
Sinusubukan kong wag tingnan yung table ng benefits na sinend sakin nung company. Magaling ako sa math. Alam kong nasa 6 digits yun.
Ano ba ang ginawa ko nitong nagdaang anim na taon? Sabi ko I'd stay here for 1 year, put up a company, then I'd be my own boss. It's not that I didn't try.
For the last 6 years, I've tried setting up 6 businesses. There were probably more, but I can only remember 6. Dahil sa I follow the dream-big-start-small rule, hindi naman ganun kalaki ang naging losses ko.
I just got an email from a museum kanina. They want to form collaboration with one of the businesses I put up in Facebook. They're asking for the rate. The go-getter in me is saying, "go for it". Pero, putek, realistic ba to?
You know what I'm really looking for? Gusto ko nang mapapang-asawa na I can have an equal partnership with. Yung kayang pantayan ang talent, skills at intellect ko. Yung medyo mas gutsy kesa sakin para sya yung mang eencourage whenever fear and doubt hit us both. And then together we will build businesses and grab opportunities that will come along our way. Feeling ko kasi mas madali kung may kasama kang nag-aalala at nagpe-press on sa kabila ng mga inhibitions nyong dalawa. Oo, it sounds like I'm looking more for a business partner than a husband. Pero parang ang saya kasi yung parahes kayong nagstart sa mababa and sabay kayong nag work on your way towards the top. And besides, pag mayaman na ko, I don't think I'd be willing to accept anyone with a lower net worth.
I don't put so much premium on my feelings, so I don't think it would be so hard. I just need someone who will meet my specifications and we'll be ready to go. I'm also a very loving person, hindi lang talaga halata. Ipis nga kaya kong mahalin, tao pa kaya.
Or am I just making things more complicated? Lol.
Bago ang lahat, kailangan ko munang humanap ng bagong trabaho.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 11:24 PM.