Thursday. I was able to catch the last train from work on the way to my place in Manda. My shift tomorrow will be 4 hours earlier. Nawa ay magising ako sa alarm.
The travel could take more than 20 minutes. Sarado na yata ang mga mall by then.
Tomorrow will be the club contest. I needed to say "no" for a meetup because of this.
Know what, I have an officemate named Wilma. We call her Wendy. She once saw me busy with extracurricular stuff and told me, "ang busy mo no..." She also told me na sana daw ganun din sya. Sya daw kasi walang direction at go with the flow lang. Pero sa totoo lang, wala naman akong pinagkaiba kay Wendy.
Ano future plans ko? Wala.
Anong goals ko sa buhay? Hindi ko sure.
Paano ko nakikita ang sarili ko 5 years from now? Heck, I don't even know.
At sa tingin ko, ok lang naman talaga yun.
Ang sama ng pakiramdam ko today. Runny nose, colds and cough. Ayoko mag sick leave ng Friday dahil made deactivate ang badge ko. Isa pa, ba hassle ko na si Angelo para makipag palit ng shift sakin.
7th day or November. More than a month na kong vegetarian. The last time, I dreamt of eating chicken. In the dream, I regretted it so much that I felt such a relief when I woke up and realized that it was just a dream. I used to think mahirap maging vegetarian. Now I realized, mas mahirap palang bumalik.
I still eat most sea foods except fish. Basta mga walang back bone. I was eating crab last night and was looking at the eyes of the dead crab and felt so sorry. Naiinis ako. Kung lagi nalang akong naawa sa mga hayop, ano pang makakain ko?
Sabi ng isang gifted naturopath, humans are made to be omnivores daw at maraming vitamine deficiencies na makukuha kung vegetarian ka. Ano bang gagawin ko? Naghahanap din ng meat ang katawan ko. Ganito siguro ang feeling ng aswang na nag decide na di na sya ulet kakain ng tao.
Next station na ang baba ko. Eto muna for now.
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Written by cinderellaareus at 09:40 PM.