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日曜日: November 1, 2020



I had been off work for 4 days, until I got back yesterday. Iba na pala ang process ng MIM. Basta may mga nagbago sa trabaho.

Sabi sa librong nabasa ko, hindi daw healthy para sa tao ang hindi nagta trabaho. Sa tingin ko, totoo yun.

Antamad ko no?

Ewan ko. Siguro iba yung tamad sa tinatamad.

Hindi ako tamad. Tinatamad lang. At kahit tinatamad ako, lagi ko pating ginagawa yung best ko.

Tapos? Ewan ko ulet.

Alam mo ba, I spend most of my waking hours inside my head. I do one thing, but my head is elsewhere. With this, I feel like I'm not fully living. Kaya lately, I've been trying to get out of my head and actually live the moment. Ang hirap. Takte, ang hirap. Laging lumilipad yung isip ko instead of paying attention to what's actually happening. May ADD ba ko?

Nung college, meron kaming kaibigan na laging hyper. Para syang may ADHD. One time, another friend instructed her to hold a leaf, and her only task is to focus on that leaf for about a few minutes. Grabe, wala pang 5 seconds sumuko na sya.

Sa tingin ko kaya ko naman mag focus sa dahon ng mga isa o dalawang minuto.

I just want to calm my mind down. I do have ulterior motive.

See, yung mind daw kasi, parang tubig. Pag calm ang water, even if you just lightly touch it, the effect will create ripples. 

Pero sa turbulent water, kahit maghagis ka ng refrigerator sa tubig, it wouldn't make so much difference.

Feeling ko pag kalmado ang isip ko, I can manifest all the things that I want out of life effortlessly. 

And it wouldn't be dangerous because I am a good person and I can be trusted.

And even if I turn out to be a bad person, I don't think I'd create so much damage, because as you know, I'm very lazy.

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Our bathroom is done. This ends our house's renovation. Hindi ko na kailangang ubusin ang leave ko dahil lang sa nahihiya akong sumagot ng calls habang nag babarena or nag we welding ang mga workers sa bahay namin. 

I liked how the bathroom turned out. Ako ang namili ng color ng tiles. It could've looked even better kung available yung style na gusto ko initially.

Magpapagawa ako ng sarili kong bahay soon. Hahanap ng muna ako ng lupa. Ok lang kahit maliit at hindi kagandahan ang ipapagawa kong bahay, basta maganda at malaki ang banyo. Pangarap ko kasi talaga yung bahay na maganda ang banyo.



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Written by cinderellaareus at 04:49 PM.

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