Ika limang araw na ng long weekend ko including my days off last Thursday and Friday. Hindi pa nadedeliver PC replacement kaya hindi pa rin ako nakakapag work. I should be celebrating my extended weekend, yet I still feel... anxious?
I don't know.
Still watching Encounter. I'm nearly finished. Park Bo Gum on episode 1 had longer wavy hair. He was an absolute hottie looking like that. I thought he'd carry that vibe the entire series, pero binalik ulet sa usual yung hairstyle at pormahan nya after ng 1st episode. Still gwapo though.
Parang ang perfect ni PBG no? Naalala ko tuloy this guy I've met years ago.
The guy was tall. Nothing close to PBG, but he was also quite good-looking. Good-looking enough that when he passes by, women (and sometimes men) turn their heads for a second look. He also carried clothes so well that he can make a plain sando look fashionable on him. Pogi nga e.
He also got some personality. He was fun. He knew stuff. I truly felt enchanted when we first met. There were even times when I've felt like he was the most wonderful person I've ever met.
Until I've seen the sides I didn't notice at the start. I was so blinded on how he sparkled, I didn't see the sides of him that were dark.
Nung tinitingnan ko tuloy si Park Bo Gum, looking seemingly perfect, naisip ko tuloy kung katulad din ba sya ng lalaking nakikilala ko years ago... I mean, meron kaya talagang lalaking perfect?
Sabagay, ako rin naman hindi perfect. I'm so much far from being one.
Perfect din ba ang hinahanap mo?
Sa totoo lang, hindi rin ako sure kung ano bang hinahanap ko.
I reminisce the past sometimes. Tingin ko, wala akong masyadong pinagsisisihan sa buhay ko, pero na realize ko na ang daming kong mga "dapat pala" stuff. Stuff that I wish I've done or chosen instead. Is this not a "pagsisisi" also? Lol. Ewan ko.
Parang ang lungkot ko today. Wala naman talagang dahilan. Or baka yung kawalan ng dahilan itself ang dahilan, no?
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Written by cinderellaareus at 01:53 PM.