Yesterday, woke up wanting to live the mantra, "today, I shall judge nothing that occur."

E kaso, ayun. Umepal si Robert.

Ayoko sanang bigyan sya ng space sa blog na to, pero siguro for documentation, ilalagay ko na rin.

It all started when he made a "haha" react on my message sa work gc para mag aux to do backlogs. I didn't feel like letting it slide, so I asked, "what's with the 'haha' react?". And he went on to complain about my auxes. Of course I went ahead to defend myself, with matching screenshots to prove my point. I challenged him to show proof and file a formal complaint, and he responded with nonsensical rants, plus a "hahaha".

The TL stepped in. He talked to each of us to hear our points individually, and also investigated the matter. Ayun, lumabas tuloy na sya may pinakamaraming aux saming lahat. Lol.

TL asked me to be calm and not turn our gc to a battlefield. Nirequest nya rin na burahin namin yung mga messages namin dun. Ang sarap kalbuhin ni Robert kahit matagal na syang panot. Nakakatawa na ang kapal ng apog nya to accuse me of things e sya yung maraming escalations.

Kahit nung new hire palang ako, I already noticed that Robert had a habit of looking down on people. Well, hindi nya ako pwedeng i-bully. Education, language skills, and tech skills, wala syang binatbat sakin. Excuse me.

Lintek sya, hindi ko sya uurungan kahit umabot kami sa HR. The data are all there. Kita kitang naman kung sino sa amin ang mas productive.

Lol. Hinga ng malalim. Hahaha.

Sabi ng TL ko, kalma lang daw. Sinabi nya rin na wala akong dapat i-explain dahil nakikita nya ang productivity ko sa trabaho. Kung di nya kami inawat, hindi ko titigilan si Robert. Confident ako sa performance ko sa work at hindi ako katulad nya na nag i-slack off. Hanggang ngalngal lang sya at wala syang mapapatunayan dahil di totoo ang pinag-sasabi nya. I'll make this moron pay for crossing me.

Okay, joke lang. Ayokong mag spend ng energy to make that impakto's life a living hell. He's probably living that life already. Iniisip ko nalang na baka hindi masarap ang ulam nya or baka hindi sya minahal ng magulang nya nung bata pa sya kaya para syang pinaglihi sa sama ng loob. Lol.

Hayst. So much for "today, I shall judge nothing that occur". Nanggagalaiti talaga ako kay Robert. Gusto ko syang tirisin.

When I was younger, I used to forgive people easily. Pero ngayon, ewan ko ba. I feel like I'm starting to be the type of person I hate. Masarap naman ang ulam namin, at minahal naman ako ng mga magulang ko nung bata pa ko. I know I shouldn't be behaving like this.

For a long time in a while, I asked the Heavens for help. Ayokong patuloy na magalit. Even today, I'm still trying.

On a happy note, Wednesday ngayon, at off ko na bukas. Ayoko sana lumabas dahil ayoko gumastos, but the bank called, and I need to pick-up my rewards card. We also have an appointment with our ENT.

Maraming dapat isipin at pagbuhusan ng enerhiya kesa sa galit ko kay Robert.

The kittens will be 2 months old on Feb 2, which will make their mother cat eligible for kapon. Iniisip ko pa lang yung sakit na ie-endure ng pusa ko, naiiyak na ko.

Hayst. I wish my heart is so much stronger than this.

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