Every time I eat something sweet, I feel like I'm shortening my life span.

Drinking coke now with chocolate syrup. I hate the taste of regular coke, I can't really stand it, but Ted said that artificial sugar in sugar-free drinks can cause cancer. I guess this is a better choice. I just finished my coke zero float though. This is just a refill as we do not have coke zero at home.

I'm not forgetting that I am sick. 

When I was younger, I thought that 30 years was a long enough number of years to live. I still think the same at 36. Parang yung sabi sa isang kanta, "I've had just enough time."

If you're not scared of dying, then what's really there left to be afraid of?

My late friend, Cristina, predicted that she was not going to live past 30. She died few months before she reached that age. She also made a prediction about me. She said that when that prediction came true, I would remember her. I remember the prediction to date. It still hasn't come true yet.

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I've finished the last ep available for Attack on Titan. I think the next ep will be released on April 4. Final ep na ata. I'm not sure. Started watching the spin-off series. 

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Having bout of sadness for days now. Feelings like this usually go away when ignored. I've just been thinking of what to do with my life. I remember wanting to do great things when I was younger. Then at some point, great things stopped to matter.

Naalala ko yung scene sa Tangled na conflicted si Rapunzel kung anong gagawin yan pag natupad na yung pangarap nya. Tas sabi ni Flynn Rider, something like, "then, just find a new dream."

Ang simple nung sagot sa parehas na tanong na tinatanong ko sa sarili ko for the longest of time, back then. I happened to reached my life-long dream when I was 23, and from then on, I felt like I was just going with the flow, floating through life aimlessly.

Pero naalala ko, I have another life-long dream that I've set aside for the longest of time now. Ang hirap nya kasing makuha. Hindi ko alam kung paano ko ba makukuha. At hindi ko rin alam kung makakabuti ba sakin kung makukuha ko sya.

Now I'm once again conflicted. Should I get off my ass and work towards this dream that may even turn out to be something I don't really like? Or should I just continue having the comfort of floating aimlessly through life?

The fact that I have these options is a blessing in itself. I think we need to quit the unnecessary drama. I just feel like, I don't have an infinite amount of time, so making the correct choice is crucial.

But what makes a correct choice though?

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Gah, this drink is killing me faster than heat stroke. Sobrang init sa Pilipinas, I'm resorting to ingesting drinks that are bad for me.

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