Took an SL today to see a dentist, only to find out that they were fully booked. Got myself sheduled late April. To kill time, I went to the next mall, and somehow ended up in a skin clinic having some diode treatment thingy. It's like an IPL, but more advanced. Killed 4k in 1 sitting. It will cover a total of 4 sessions though, and a few products, so, not bad na. I should've done this way before RTO. Said I'm not allowed to do anything with my armpits. Ang hirap magiging babae no?

But if I am to be born again, I'd still wish to be a woman. Well, only for the prevelidges. But being a man doesn't sound so bad too. I think it's so much less hassle.

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I remember a long time ago, at school. There was this physical exam thingy. To save time, the attendant physically examined a number of women in one go. Chest exam.

I was mixed with this woman from the same dept. We never really talked much, she was just someone I knew.

Few days after the physical exam, the girl went up to me to profusely say sorry. Said she didn't know we're going to get mixed at the physical exam. I absolutely had no idea what was there to be sorry about, but at that time, she looked so kawawa being apologetic like that, so I said, it's all fine. Later, someone told me that the girl liked me.

What's kakko warui in English? I do not know how that is supposed to be translated, but that was how I felt. I mean, it hurt my woman's pride. Like, do I look like a man, to be liked by a woman? Lol.

I still don't understand why she said sorry that time. I mean, it wasn't her fault that we were told to undress. And we both have it. We both saw it. So, what's the big deal?

Anyway, maybe there are just still a lot of things that I do not understand in this world. And at this age, my experience in that department is still not much different from a fetus. It's kakko warui, you know.

There are so many things I want to understand.

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Had one of my cats scheduled for kapon tomorrow. I still remember the trauma I went through the 1st time I had my other cat neutered. If I have a better choice, I will never resort to this. Sana maging maayos ang lahat. Sana maging safe ang pusa ko.

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Time will pass even if I won't do anything, no? I think I might as well give it a try. My fear is to spend time, tears, and effort, then fail to get it in the end. Or, manage to get it, then realize that I don't want it afterall.

Well, ewan, bahalanaa.

I just don't want to be the same anymore.

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