Mom and Bro left early morning yesterday to go to Cavite for my Nephew's birthday party. Neice, Nephew, and their mother went there a few days earlier. It had been just Dad and I since. Incidentally, Mom lost a brother yesterday. She must be mourning, but it's not like she'll skip her grandchild's party for this.

Adulthood is scary. Life has so many demands, you can't even mourn. Of course, I'm not sad about losing an uncle so I wouldn't understand so much. He lived in Davao, and we were not really close,  so yeah.

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Going back to the office in a week. Sabi ko dati I'll make use of the time I have while working from home to make a lot of money, so I'll be rich enough to not work anymore, by the end of the Pandemic. Anyare, teh?

Sighs.

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Been trying to remember a certain poem I've made. 

See, I love poems. I've memorized all of my favorite poems, and the oldest one I learned in grade 2.

"There is no frigate like a book/ To take us land away/ Or any cruisers like a page/Of fancy poetry"

Or that poem that bff made for her crush in high school:

"I know I was to blame/ If you don't know my name/ If I can theft your heart/ mine will not be inept."

Or the one I read from an old book from our university library:

"For a moment I thought I could forget you/ for a moment I thought I could still the restlessness in my heart/ I thought the past could no longer haunt me/ nor hurt me/ how wrong I was...."

Those were nice poems. I've wrote countless poems myself. The 1st poem I wrote, I've written when I was six. That was basically the time when I just started learning to write sentences.

It's just weird, I didn't memorize any of the poems I've made. There's this one poem I want to remember. It was about R. It was about the time when we were at the pool, and he was carrying me on his back... gah! I can only remember the last line...

"He's no longer there..."

F*ck. It felt important. I really want to remember. But I've burned all my letters and notes years ago... I don't think I've written it anywhere on the internet.

Well, come to think of it... between that guy and I, parang laging nagko conspire talaga ang langit against us. Not that it matters now. It's not that I'm gonna do anything. I just really want to remember. Damn it.

Sighs... it's getting really lonely lately. Maybe I've been reading too much BL.

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