the world feels glooooomy.

i probably woke up in the wrong side of the bed.

or maybe slept in one.

or maybe because i barely slept at all.

for straight 1 week, it was either i lacked sleep or didnt sleep at all. been drinking coffee 5 days in a row now and my stomach feels burnt already. am i dying? ugh, damn this. huhu.

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sadness is kind of getting into me lately and even chocolates and foods are not doing the trick.

im also feeling anxious about a lot of things. scared even. i guess depression comes when you focus on what you lack and add anxiety to that and that's a total emotional mayhem.

i threw away a comfortable life to get myself out of complacency because i believed that with complacency, im not gonna amount to something.

im far from having a comfortable life now and yet the life ive chosen doesnt seem to be serving it's purpose.

'ano na?', 'now what?'... same old questions... ano na? now what?... sh*t, will i ever find an answer to these?

ano na? now what?

if you cant answer your own questions, maybe you should change the questions.

so, how can i make my life better?

how can i be a step closer to the life i want?

how can i get everything i want in life?

what can i do to turn my dreams to reality?

...

i guess im starting to know what it is that i want. that's a start, right? Now, i will only have to figure out how to get it and actually do something about it.

read(or heard) somewhere that it takes 21 days to form a habit.

to have a better life, i think i should start with a better self.

id start with 21 days of sleeping properly, of eating only good stuff, of absolutely no coffee(or softdrinks).

21 days. we'll see.

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