1:14am now. I can't sleep. Probably because I've slept half of the day already. Plus I'm having scary thoughts I'm not sure if these were my intuition talking or my overactive imagination.. (Yang, if you're reading this, please text me.. Huhu T_T)
Sighs... Sana naman OK lng ang lahat..
1st day as an official tm last Fri. Wasn't our usual meeting since we had a contest. They had me as the timer. I'm gonna be ms. Timer din next week for another contest. Then after this meeting we're gonna be back to our normal meetings and I'll be delivering my first basic speech project. That is on 12th.,,
I have more than 1000 entries here in tabby. Kung sipag din lng, masipag naman talaga akong magsulat. Ang di ko lang maintindihan e yung kung kelan need q magsulat e tsaka naman di maawat awat ang self-doubt sa kakabulong na "Hindi mo kaya.." Or yung sobrang convincing na, "Hindi k magaling.." Or ung nightmarish na banat like, "Hindi nila magugustuhan yan..."
Sheesh.. Any hirap kalaban ng sarili, di ba? Ewan..
May 2 weeks p naman ako. Pero sana naman maisulat ko na sya this week para next week e yung pag mememorize nalang at practice ng delivery yung aatupagin ko. Hindi ko alam kung baket pati ang creative juices ko e Hindi rin nkikipag cooperate saken..
Got a lot of things to work on. I decided to cut off my partnership with Kuya for this food biz that we're setting up. We obviously have different vision on this. I figured that if I go on I will just end up impeding their progress. I want to work on something I like doing. Something I'm really passionate about. I know cutting the partnership off will just mean that I have to start over again. Sighs.. Pero choice ko to.. And so I am now again back to zero... Sana Hindi ako nagkamali...
I was being :my typical normal self lately.
I mean, he's obviously gay. But my eyes can't help turning his way.
Some tall, dark guy.. Over achiever.. Nice hair.. Neat.. Smart.. He has it e... I mean, how can I not?
So, kung Hindi may asawa, bading naman??! Anong klaseng taste ba yan, z?? Huhu..
But, sa tingin ko OK pa naman ako.. Siguro natutuwa lang ako sa kanya kasi nga magaling sya..
Kakainis lang feeling ko kasi he and this other guy, g, are a couple...
Wait, I need to punch something... Wahhhhh!!!
Man, this sounds bad... Huhu.
1:58pm.. Ang daming gagawin. E Hindi ako makatulog. So, Baket ko pipiliting matulog kung marami nga akong gagawin?
Wait, that makes sense right?
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Written by cinderellaareus at 02:00 AM.