水曜日. July 10, 2019

Over

Hindi ko alam kung saan nanggagaling ang malungkot na feeling na ito. Siguro dahil mag aalas dos na at ngayon palang ako kakain. Marahil dahil nalipasan na naman ako ng gutom o dahil ilang araw nalang at "red days" na.

Sa harap ko ay lasagna at yayamanin drink na nakuha ko ng libre sa sb. I love lasagna and I love yayamanin drinks. I don't know why I suddenly don't feel like eating.

Something feels wrong. Like I wasn't able to do something I should have. Ganun.

Naisip ko lang ang mga mini landians I engaged in these past few years. If only it all happened with the right person, siguro naka progress na kami into something stable by now.

Sabi sa nabasa ko, isa sa 7 needs ng tao ang uncertainty. Maybe it's true for the young and adventurous. Kasi at some point in our lives, we'll seek the thrill of the unknown naman talaga. But I think I already got past that. I want something sure and predictable for a change.

I was just informed that after the orientation on Friday, my sched for now will be 9AM-6PM, all good. A few weeks back, I overheard a convo where a girl told her other girl companion, "naku, pag nagna night shift pa naman, nabubuntis."

Though I'm perpetually "nene" and I think there's very little likelihood that that will happen to me, mejo nag panic parin ako ng konti. Surely, I do want to build my own family and have kids, but not that way. I don't judge people who've chosen differently, but for myself, I want to do it the conventional way. In a relationship muna, then engagement, then marriage, then kids--strictly in that order. Everyone in our family had it like that.

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Z: bale hindi ko na po kayo need hanapin sa Friday no?

P: Oo, hindi mo na ko kailangan.

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Sigh. Bye, crushie. T_T

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Wait, is this why you're feeling sad, Z?

Putek, ambabaw!


02:16 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。

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Comment posted on July 10th, 2019 at 04:02 PM
hahaha sis ang cute mo! :P pero may point ka...baka nga hormones lang yan ;)
Comment posted on July 10th, 2019 at 09:13 PM
Lel, thanks. Kung maka crush, parang 16 years old. Hahaha.

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