Entries for November, 2023
Magreresign daw yung isang workmate ko. Usually, nalulungkot ako pag may nagreresign. But more than lungkot, naiinggit ako, kasi sya, lalaya na.
Iniisip ko kung solusyon bang humanap ng ibang trabaho. But how will it be any different kung lilipat lang ako ng ibang cage?
Haaaaaaaa. I'm tired. Gusto kong mag leave ng 1 month. Or mag leave tas di na babalik.
Haaaaaaaa.
I seriously need something to spice things up. Ang alat ng buhay. I don't even know what "maalat" means.
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I met a cute bird when we went to Cebu Safari. It landed on a railing near me. I tried talking to it, when it flew and perched, first on my head, then on my shoulder. It even pecked my cheeks several times, parang kiss. If birds are this sweet, naisip kong gusto kong mag alaga ng bird. But then I learned that they live for about 10 to 20 years. I'm worried that I might die first, leaving my bird to fend for himself.
Sometimes life feels too short no. Pero most times, it feels too long and pointless. Hahaha.
Haaaaaaaaa.
I'm so unhappy. I wonder if requirement ba talaga ng pagiging adult ang masanay na hindi ka masaya.
03:13 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Been sick for 2 days now. The rest of my family have been sick for over a week now. Last night, while struggling to breathe, I needed to explain to my boss how the number of leaves get computed. It's really annoying. They've been here for 2-3 years and yet they're still clueless about the leave policy. I wonder how they processed it for the past years that they're here. Hinuhulaan lang nila? Why should a sick person has to go through this hassle?
Whatever.
At the hotel for an event now. Still sick, but the hotel is already paid, and so is the event, so I'm here. I wonder if I should just skip the event.
The breakfast at the hotel tasted awful. They should fire their cook. It should he mandatory for hotel to serve good food.
Ugh, been complaining a lot lately.
And know what... this event... I feel like I don't belong here anymore.
07:20 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Skipped work. The world spins every time I try to get up. Good luck sa pagbalik ko sa office bukas.
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I so badly want to resign, I want to cry.
When Ian was planning to resign back then, I remember telling him na pag tyagaan nya nalang dahil mahirap humanap ng work na kasing laki ng sahod namin... and then, shoot! I found myself convincing myself of the same thing.
Hayyy. Lord, ano bang gagawin ko?
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I re-read Harada's "Happy Kuso Life" manga. Out of the mountains of BL mangas I've read, this is my top favorite. I went to Japan last May for HKL3 exhibit. I bought the official photo book. I keep the photobook in bubble wrap. And whenever I'm feeling down, I look at it, and I don't feel so down anymore.
I want to go back to Japan to buy HKL1 and HKL2 photo book, and buy all the available volumes of the actual manga. Volume 5 was just released months back. I want to go back to Japan. Can I really afford to resign? Oh God, ano bang gagawin ko?
I want to create a battle plan but I'm too sick to think. But then I'm still reading a manga though it's making me dizzy, I'm really hopeless.
God, help me. Please...
06:13 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
