Entries for September, 2022
My boss, who lives in China, called me on Teams kanina. He informed me that Robert will be transferred in night shift. He said it's just the start. He said he hope that I'd feel better and apologized that it took him so long. Of course, the news had long reached me. Oh well...
It's not that I wish Robert any harm, you know. He's surely an annoyance. But just like a spec of dust that gets into your eye, it's not like you'd get angry on that spec of dust, di ba? There are things that are just too insignificant to be angry about. Robert is just like that. It was just when he started to be persistently annoying that I started to care.
Oh well, at least wala na sya. Technically, he'll still be there, but I won't need to interact with him anymore. All is good.
I feel grateful to the boss though. And on how my workmates reacted.
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Kanina, nakita ko ulet yung gay crush ko sa office. I haven't seen him in a while. I just happen to see him today because I went to work 1 hour earlier. I said "good morning". He commented about not seeing me during the weekend shift. Wendy explained that I've always been on a weekend shift, only on a later time. Sabi nya, dapat daw 8 ako pumapasok para di ako nae escalate. Mukhang nakarating na rin sa kanya yung tungkol samin ni Robert. Mababaw na usapan lang naman ang naganap, pero gumanda parin ang umaga ko. Ang cute talaga ng crush ko.
Supposed to meet my friends kaninang lunch. Hindi na naman natuloy. Gusto ko mag swimming with them. Tinatamad lang talaga ko.
07:29 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Doc: kelan po ang huling sexual activity?
Z: wala po
Doc: virgin?
Z: softly nods.
One of the many reasons why I hate APE. Gah!
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Day one of not having Robert around. So peaceful. Everyone happy. Sabi ko magpapa cake ako pag umalis na sya sa company. E di naman talaga sya aalis, so walang cake.
Nakakaawa rin e no. I mean, if I were him, ang lungkot siguro having people celebrate your absence, no?
07:47 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Doc said my lab results were good, so the pain in my knees was not gout nor arthritis. My kidneys and liver were good too. She concluded that this was because of my weight. I understand that it could be the reason for the knee pain, but what about my hands?
IDK. I guess I really need to go on diet.
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Back to work tomorrow. Everything feels quite irrelevant lately. I want a little action.
07:57 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Stumbled upon a manga whose MCs have the same names as the characters of the contest entry I had submitted months back. Said the winners will be announced by November. I'd thank my characters too if I'll win. If not, we will just join again. Same characters. Maybe different story. Still, it'll be nice if I can win on my first try.
Come to think of it, I've developed so many hobbies and interests in my lifetime. I usually stop doing things once I feel like I'm already good enough, then proceed to do the next thing that interests me. It's only writing that I haven't abandoned yet. Maybe because I don't feel good enough yet. Or maybe because I actually truly like this. I really can't tell for sure.
Aside from this blog, and my Toastmasters speeches, I've written very few literally pieces. This is only the third time that I'm joining a writing contest. The 1st one was in high-school. I got the 3rd place. Next was in college where I placed 2nd. Maybe I'll lose interest once I become a champion. Well, I don't know.
Wait, I also joined a poem writing contest in FB back then, and I did not win. I guess people tend to forget the times they lose, no? Maybe there's more.
I could use the prize money right now bilang ang gastos ko lately, plus, I need to pay para sa paghahati hati ng lupa ni Papa.
I'm probably having PMS as my head has been covered with dark clouds lately. I do have some motivation to write my entries for next year, but I feel too lazy to open the laptop.
In less than a month, birthday ko na. I told Mom na ang gusto kong handa e baked sushi, baked mac (no-meat, pasta, sauce and cheese only), tas lumpiang toge. She also promised to buy me cake from kumori. I really wish to advance my birthday, only for the food. I remember just a week ago, the doctor strictly instructed me to go on diet. Is this an adult rebellious phase?
04:12 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Ang daming absent due to sickness kanina. There were only 2 agents, including myself. Chill naman nung morning until pumalo na yung Indian business hours.
Workmates I haven't talked to before started talking to me since konti lang kami at that time. Then, I was on a Teams call, and they were still talking, until the conversation went into something like this:
WM1: Alam mo na ba hitsura ni *insert my name here*? Ang ganda nya kaya.
WM2: Talaga ba? Patingin nga. *Walks in front of my seat*. Oo nga no.
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Ang sakin lang, sakali mang makita nila ang hitsura ko behind the face mask, hindi ko naman siguro kasalanan kung ma disappoint sila, di ba?
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Hybrid wfh setup na ang mga agents from Japan, Poland, and China. Kami na nasa Pinas, matira matibay parin.
10:36 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Gusto ko ng kotse na kulay orange. Pag nakabili na ko, papangalan ko yon ng Mafuyu. Yung character na vocalist sa anime na Given.
9 minutes, at off na ko.
Ang cute ng Here U Are na manhua. I'm almost finished.
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Officemate's mom is sick of liver cirrhosis. I've been reading about it since she left halfway her shift today. Said her mom was in pain again. She no longer has a dad. I've read that there are stages to this disease. And if I remember the symptoms that she told me her mom has, it seems like her mom is on stage 3. Sana maging okay lahat for her.
I've been checking for supplements to buy to prevent my parents for having the same sickness. Nakakatakot mawalan ng magulang. Sana magsurvive at gumaling na ang mama ng officemante ko.
I want to buy more shoes and clothes... but I feel like I need to save more money to ensure that I can provide for whatever medical needs my parents will have in the future.
Universe, penging net passive income na 1 million pesos monthly!
05:59 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Last Monday, an officemate lost her mother. She went home halfway her shift. She texted around 7pm on our GC that her mother was sent to the ICU. Around 8PM, she said her mother left her already.
I can imagine the pain. It's something I don't want myself, nor anyone else, to go through. Ano bang pwedeng sabihin sa taong nagluluksa?
Today, just like everyday, hinatid ako ni mama sa may kanto pasakay sa bus on my way to work. She said "babye, nak", when I was about to get inside the bus. I can't imagine losing my mother. Just the thought of it makes me feel like crying already. Hindi ko talaga kaya yun.
Hayyyy.
Ano bang sasabihin ko sa officemate ko pag balik nya sa work?
06:57 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Probably because I've been wearing this pride cap at work, I wonder if people are thinking that I swing that way.
There is this girl who keeps telling me na ang ganda ganda ko. Lately, may very light na paghawak hawak na syang nalalaman. I don't know for sure, but she does look like a lesb*an. It's fine if she is. It's just that, I've been wondering if all this act is because she's thinking I swing that way too and see me as a kindred spirit... or is she actually hitting on me?
Well, my bad for causing the misunderstanding. See, I wear cap because I'm getting stomach gas pag nalalamigan ang ulo ko. I chose this pride design as a testament of my love for BL, and because I find the rainbow thingy design quite cute
I'm super open about things, and I think I'm willing to explore. I don't think it will ever work with a girl though, because I absolutely don't have any interest in a woman's body. I mean... if gay people cannot help that they're gay, I guess straight people also cannot help that they're straight.
Well, I don't know. Baka wala lang naman talaga.
08:19 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Takte, malupitang pagpipigil ang ginagawa ko nitong mga nakaraang araw. Gusto ko kasing bumili ng bagong sapatos, pero kailangang kong isipin na nagmahal na ang bilihin at hindi ako pwede lumagpas sa budget.
My parents are using fake crocs shoes pag pumupunta sa palengke. Sira na yung gamit nila at pinapasukan na ng tubig. I want to buy them the original one. Syempre, 1 pair for myself too. Yung pale yellow, or yung may smileys print. Tapos gusto ko isang lacoste, isang jordan, at isang addidas... or siguro Dr. Martens, hindi ko nga lang alam kung kasya sa binti ko... also, totoong hayop ata ang dr. Martens... isesearch ko siguro muna, pero gusto ko talaga nun. Kung di yun gawa sa totoong hayop, I'll buy one. Grabe nasa 5k lang dati ang Dr. Martens, ngayon over 10k na.
I want to buy 4 more pairs for myself, tapos ititigil ko na ang di makatarungang pag gasta. Kaya ko yun.
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Nakakatamad. I want change.
01:34 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
I lost my cat, Mini, today. Just a week ago, a workmate lost a mother. I know it doesn't compare, but that doesn't invalidate the grief I feel for my lost pet.
From 7, my cats are down to 5.
Kanina, Mom was planning to just throw Mini away dahil umuulan at mahirap maghukay. Gets ko. Ayaw ko ring mahirapan sila mama at papa, so I proposed that they find someone na maghuhukay then I will pay. But as I was proposing, I started crying, kaya nag panic yung nanay ko. She immediately told Dad, " ilibing nalang natin at nag-iiyak na yung anak mo." I feel sorry na kailangan nilang mahirapan dahil dito. Kung wala akong pasok, I would've dig Mini's grave myself. I surely love my cats, but of course, I love my parents more.
I wish I'll never lose another cat. And I wish, I can have my parents forever.
08:33 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
