Entries for December, 2020
I was moved to 9am-6pm shift. That's just 1 hr earlier from the previous one, and yet I'm feeling so sleep-deprived.
Will be having a straight 7 days work as I requested to move my rest days this week because we didn't have internet connection last monday.
Work starts in less than 30 minutes.
Antok pa ko.T_T
08:34 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
11:50PM.
Ang nasa isip ko e isang pares na tasty na may palamang tuna at mayonnaise. Tapos Fita na sinawsaw sa Milo.
I don't even feel hungry.
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I hate relatives who speak as if my mom is so kawawa that she doesn't have an apo from me. Then proceed to ridiculously suggesting na ipaampon nalang daw dapat sakin ng kapatid ko ang isa sa pamangkin ko. Ano yun, tuta?
Nakapikon.
Then he even had the nerve to ask me na pahiramin ko sya ng pera?????! Wahahahahayuuup. Lol.
Doesn't it feel so wrong sometimes...
Yung kailangan mong galangin those people who offend you like it's nothing, all because mas matanda sila. Tas kamag-anak mo pa. Tas alam mo mapapahiya parents mo kung babastusin mo sila, kahit sila e hindi ka naman nirerespeto.
Tae no. Tae talaga.
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12:06 am na. Di ako makatulog. Trabaho pa bukas. Gusto ko na yumaman.
12:12 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
12 years na kong empleyado. And I still feel the same all these years.
I've worked for 4 employers already.
Kung tutuusin, maswerte ako sa mga napasukan kong trabaho.
Company #1 made my major dreams come true.
It sent me to Japan. Made me study Japanese.
Company #2 wasn't so good, but it led me to change my career, so I landed to Company #3.
Company #3 was an answered prayer. I asked to get paid with the same amount as I was having back in co#1 minus the work load. 6 years spent with almost just having to sign in and out of the office. Supee petiks! Sounds good? Sa totoo lang, hindi masaya.
And now Company #4 came. I got the exact salary the I asked the Heavens for. Sabi ko rin, yung medyo may ginagawa naman, so yeah, may ginagawa naman talaga. I also asked for officemates I can be friends with, and I kinda have it now... okay ba? Okay!
Okay naman e. Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit ganun parin ang feelings ko towards work.
Kahit mabait ang mga boss ko.
Kahit ok ang sweldo.
Kahit mababaut ang mga katrabaho.
At kahit ngayon na hindi ko na kailangang bumyahe, may mga araw parin na ayoko nang pumasok.
Kailangan ko ng pera. Di ba kailangan naman talaga ng pera para mabuhay? And I want to give my parents an even better life. Habang kaya pa nila mamasyal, gusto ko silang ipasyal. And I want to give them all the fine things they can have, and I can only do that if I have money.
Tae. Sinubukan ko rin namang mag negosyo pero ganun di yung feeling. Yung feeling na you owe everyone everything. Parang kahit oras mo hindi ikaw ang may-ari. Ganun. Ewan ko.
May way ba?
Yung hindi ka magtatrabaho, or mag nenegosyo, pero masusustain mo pa rin ang sarili mo financially, without having to downgrade your lifestyle? Naniniwala akong may way...
Alam ko.... mahahanap ko rin yan! Sa 2021, mahahanap ko yan! At makukuha ko rin. And my family and I will enjoy all these together.
Thanks in advance , Universe.
12:10 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Ep 1. Ang intense. And, oof, ampogi Arisu, my gahd.
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Naalala ko lang, ang last major kilig ko sa buhay e nung lumabas si Cris Evans, full beard, sa Infinity War. And that was, what? 2018? Gah!
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It was the 1st time in a long time na nakompleto ko ang workweek na walang absent.
Ano bang gagawin ko sa buhay ko, Universe.
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Sa totoo lang, ngayon nalang ulet ako nakapag Netflix. Bukod sa busy sa trabaho, mejo nahu hook ako sa game na Legend Of the Phoenix.
Grabe sobrang productive ko nitong mga nakaraang araw.
01:13 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
MMFF is worth 250 pesos per movie. Keribels, since there are 6 of us in the family who can watch the film, so not bad na (the 7th member is an 8 month old boy who cannot watch tv yet).
I asked Mom what she wants to watch, and she was like, "lahat". I think my mom is overestimating my financial capacity. Lol.
I miss Heneral Dizon's MMFF review. I wonder how she is now. Maybe somewhere fighting for what she believes in, probably disapproving the government.
Or, she could be also dead.
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Naiisip ko pa rin yung Alice In Borderland, days after I finished watching. It's been a while since I last watched a good J-drama. Kelan kaya ang season 2?
I think Kdrama men looks good, mostly because of their clothes. Have you seen Kento Yamazaki in Alice in Borderland? Shabby clothes, messed up hair, pero tokwa, pogi parin! Haha!
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The year 2020 feels so old, there are days when I'm convinced that it's already 2021.
12:24 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
1 day and 2020 is over.
Pretty slow year. There were bad news here and there, so if at this point you are still able to read this Tabulas entry, ay aba! Survivor ka!
I really can't say I'm ending the year with a happy note, although, ok naman kami. I'm grateful. The people I love are still with me, and we still have money. We're good. All is good.
I don't know if 2021 will be better for myself and for the rest of the world.
My prayer is 2021 will be great year full of blessings beyond imagination.
That businesses that were hit hard, will be able to stand back again.
That people will be healthier, wealthier. And more jobs will be available for those who are in need.
That there will be healing to those who have gotten sick.
And comfort for those who have lost a loved one... or so.
Wisdom for the Filipino people. Protection and providence for the Nation.
Tas, world peace.
For my family and myself, happiness, excellent health, great opportunities, and abundance in all things. Same for my friends, the people I care about, and you, tabulas people.
Then...
Then, gusto ko na magkaroon ng 2 million pesos monthly income, earned effortlessly! That I'll be able to have the liberty of time and resources to do whatever I want in life. And that I'll be able to give my parents a luxurious life they never dared imagine.
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Thank you, 2020. Let's do this, 2021!
12:07 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
2nd entry of the day.
Wala masyadong calls at 1pm pa ang break ko kaya patambay muna.
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Nung bata pa ko, gustong gusto ko ng lemon square cheesecake. Pakiramdam ko humihinto ang mundo pag kumakain ako non. I remember Mom let me eat as many cheesecakes as I want to the point ma umay na umay na ko at hindi na ko kumain ulet ng cheesecake. The next time I ate cheesecake, I was already an adult. Until now, kumakain lang ako ng cheesecake pag walang choice.
I bought a pack of assorted lemon square cup cakes a week back. The 3 pcs left were all cheesecake. Tokwa, anong gagawin ko rito?
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Croissant ang paborito kong tinapay. Lalo na yung super thin at crispy ang mga layers, tas may palaman na chocolate sa loob. Maybe if I eat as many croissant as I want, siguro mauumay din ako at hindi na kakain ulet ng croissant. But it's hard to overindulge on something when it's not easily available. Saan ba merong croissant? I'm suiting myself with a packed bread called "crossini". I kinda like it, but it's not croissant.
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Ang bango ng ham na niluto ni Mama nung noche buena. Mom is a good cook, but she rarely cooks as she always leave the cooking to Dad. But since Dad just undergone an operation, Mom did the cooking for a few weeks. I particularly love Mom's adobo. I think hers is the best adobo ever. It's been a really long while since I last tasted her cooking, pero ngayong nagluto na sya, hindi ko naman makain.
The food smelled good, yet as I stared on the dead animal meat, my stomach squirmed in disgust. It's the exact same feeling as the thought of eating a puppy.
I wonder if the reason why I can't eat meat is due to a psychological problem or something.
12:48 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
