Entries for February, 2021
Things are pretty bad, Universe.
My head hurts from the crying fiesta earlier, and my I'm still having clogged nose.
I asked the Heavens what to do, 'coz I really didn't know.
Running away shouldn't be so hard. I can rent a unit near the office, bring my cat with me, then work onsite so I wouldn't have to think about the internet connection.
BUT I want to be with my parents. They're old. I want to stay with them while they're still here.
Also, will my cat survive being locked in the house all day?
Maybe rent-to-own house can also be an option. But I still need to think about the internet so I can continue working. Converge took months before they were able to set up our connection. Plus, if my parents will come with me, I'll need to bring 3 dogs and 4 cats with us. Ok lang ba yun?
Ang plano ko talaga, buy a lot, design my own house. I will commission Kuya Roel to build it for me. I will have a big, cozy bathroom with hot shower and bathtub. Tapos malaki yung garden para sa mga alaga kong hayop at mga halaman. Ito talaga ang gusto ko, but I'm pretty sure I can't afford it just yet.
So yeah. I think I'll just suck it up again this time. I'll buy a cage for my cat so he wouldn't go around biting people. This is just our best option at the moment. I feel sorry for my cat, pero masama rin kasi talaga yung ugali ng pusa ko. I really don't know na. Huhu.
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February didn't start so well. Lunes pa lang harassed na harassed na ko sa trabaho. But I guess I also need to suck up this one too. Syempre kailangan ko ng pera.
I filed a leave Feb 22 to 24, right next to my rest days para straight 5 days akong walang trabaho. I don't know what I'm gonna do with my free time. Maybe I'd put up a YouTube channel in the hope to earn money easily.
Sabi nung isang Vlogger na malaki na ang kinikita sa YT, madaldal daw sya kaya naisipan nyang maging Vlogger. I don't know how this will work for me when I'm not really madaldal.
Basta alam ko lang, gusto ko na yumaman.
01:22 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Good morning!
1 hour into my shift, and I already feel spent.
Universe, I want to have the freedom of money, health and time, so that I can enjoy a great life with my family.
Pengi po ng permanent passive income na 2M pesos monthly!
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So balentayms kahapon. Was working.
I feel like my views about love and marriage has changed a great deal since the lockdown. Afterall, we got 2 married couples here at home. And I also have friends with marital issues, so yeah.
Sa ngayon, ewan ko.
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Finished off Terrius until past 1am. Barely had sleep. I just ate cereals for breakfast. Sabi sa book na nabasa ko, hunger will keep you alert daw. I kinda like feeling a little hungry.
I don't feel so good a about so many things these days.
11:36 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Naisip ko lang, maybe my life will be so much easier if only I'm so much better—like native level—sa Nihongo.
Partner used to say that my accent sounds like a native. Even Meguri says that my neutral accent is the reason why he hired me over that Chinese applicant who speaks better Japanese, but with heavy accent.
Pero kasi, anong point ng tamang accent kung mali mali naman pinagsasabi ko.
Iniisip ko if ni minsan ba na na enjoy ko mag-aral ng Nihongo. Tanda ko pangarap ko to dati. Ang cool kasi pag marunong ka ng ibang language. Pero ewan ko. Na enjoy ko ba mag-aral?
I remember madalas ako sabihan ni Suzuki-sensei during my CKC training days. Lagi nalang daw ako nakatingin sa relo habang may klase.
Learning this language has opened a lot of opportunities for me. I'm more than thankful for this, you know.
Naiinis lang talaga ko. Nakakainis naman kasi yung feeling na hindi ka sure sa ginagawa mo. Kung Math to, I could've studied my brains out, and be good at it in 30 minutes. Pero dito kasi, I couldn't even make myself sit down for a few seconds para mag review. Nakakatamad, tokwa.
Gusto ko na yumaman.
10:56 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
When I was in college, I had a classmate named Niel, who was calling me P'zah. Sounds like "pizza", short for "Philosopher Zah".
P'zah. Lol.
Our new TL in APAC started calling me "Pretty Z" a few days ago. I don't know. Maybe it could be the same as how we call kids in the street "pogi". Tipong, "pogi, pabiling yosi", or "pogi, paabot nga ng bayad", ganern. Hahaha.
I have no idea how he looks like, but I can't help but see the resemblance ng mga banat nya sa mga banat ni L dati. Pero siguro, ganun lang talaga sya. Maybe he's trying to be in good terms with everyone and build rapport. He's new afterall.
But regardless the intention, kahit paano nakakaliwanag pa rin ng buhay pag may maharot na lalaki sa paligid. Haha!
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I just wrapped up my workweek.
Kanina dumaan ang mga personnel ng baranggay. About a year ago, they started requiring to register household pets with a payment of 100 pesos per pet per year.
Mom informed me that she'll only register my cat, Pengpeng, and our 3 dogs. I take care of a total of 6 cats, including the neighborhood cats who sought shelter outside the house (with roof). 900 kasi babayaran nya kasama ng mga aso kung lahat ng pusa ipaparegister nya. So, I told her I'd pay.
I was pretty excited to make the adoption on these stray cats official, only to find out na hindi pala nire register ang pusa.
I picked one of the cats and told her, "akala ko ako na may-ari sayo." To which Mom said, "bakit, ikaw naman talaga may-ari dyan."
I don't know. I really felt disappointed. I also want to have paper to attest that these are my cats, because the city pound is catching strays. Para sakaling mahuli ang mga pusa ko, pwede ko isampal sa mukha nung huhuli yung papers. Hahaha.
The neighborhood dog we named Pogi, who used to accompany Dad sa paghahatid sakin pasakay sa bus, matagal nang nawawala. Sabi ng mga kapitbahay, baka nahuli ng city pound. I've been checking their FB page since his disappearance, pero wala sya dun. Sana naman hindi sya nilechon ng mga manginginom. Huhu. Kawawa naman si Pogi.
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Watching Touch Your Heart. Sakto lang. Cute. Ano kaya panonoorin ko after neto?
07:47 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
1 hour more and I am off. I've finished Follow Your Heart last night kaya antok na antok ako today. 2 more days at bakasyon grande na ko. Yeahba!!
Tokwa, hindi ako makagastos.
We bought a tv and an oven gas range. Of course, we used my card. Mababayaran naman kagad, pero kailangan talaga mag tipid. Di nga ako dapat binili ng cat food, kaso kawawa naman yung mga pusa.
About 9 years ago, Dad got hospitalized. I remember having around 13k in my bank account. It feels pretty small now, but back then, that was all I had, and I spent it all to buy meds and stuff we need while staying in the hospital. It wasn't enough for Dad to be admitted to the icu, so we needed to bother a few relatives. Maliit man yung 13k, malaki rin natulong nun para sa pagpapa hospital ni Papa. That time, natutunan ko ang importansya ng pagtatabi ng pera sa banko.
Or natutunan ko nga ba? Lol.
I have 5 bank accounts, all are either zero balance, or saktong maintaing balance lang. Most of my money, nasa stock market. A tiny portion I have invested in SeedIn. I also have small money in mutual funds. Sa wallet ko usually wala pang isang libo, pero dahil kakabayad lang ng kapatid ko, may konti syang laman now. I will need to send those money in the bank soon though so I can pay credit card bills. I have a few dollars left from our trip last year.
Hindi naman talaga ako mahirap. I just look like it sometimes because I spend most of my money buying paper assests. Kung ikayayaman ko ba to balang araw, hindi ko rin talaga alam. Sana oo. Sana.
I haven't brought my parents out on a Vdate. Malaki pa kasi ang kailangan bayaran sa credit card. I feel sorry for my parents. A lunch out in a nice resto wouldn't cost that much anyway.... tokwa, bahala na.
2 days more, then I'll have 4 days worth of freedom na. I want to stay at home as much as possible to minimize gastos. Tamad na tamad akong magtayo ng YT channel to earn on the side.
Tamad na tamad ako, period.
05:33 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Sunday at work.
Gusto ko ng pastang hindi matamis. Miss na miss ko na ang pasta ng Shakey's. I think they have about 3 types of seafood pasta and I can't decide which one is my favorite. Watching pasta recipes on YT is not helping.
Almost 1 year na pala akong work from home. I converted my room into an office/kittens' room. I have folded the bed and turned it into a couch. I haven't been sleeping here for a long time already.
Hayst, sana ganito nalang palagi. Sana hindi na namin kailanganing bumalik sa office.
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Brother bought an oven as my niece and sis-in-law love to bake. I've tasted the ones they baked in Cavite and they were really good. Even better than the commercial ones.
Still, gusto kong maniwala na kaya ko paring pumayat sa kabila ng lahat. Tiwala lang.
03:55 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Ang cute ng Do Do Sol Sol La La Sol. Parang ang sarap i-hug nung lead guy. Ang linis linis nya tignan. Lol. Sana happy ending. Ayawan na talaga pag di sila nagkatuluyan.
4-day off work starts now. Kailangan ko parin gumising ng maaga to feed the kittens.
Ano kayang gagawin ko?
Gusto kong magpa salon.
Tumambay sa coffee shop.
Bumili ng processed food for vegetarian dahil miss ko na ang longaniza at hotdog.
Gusto ko rin dumaan sa Divine Mercy Shrine.
Pumasyal kaya ako sa MOA?
Magpadentist.
Go see a doctor for a long overdue scheduled tyroid check up.
Mag apply ng UMID.
Nakakatamad umalis. Nakakatamad bumyahe ng malayo lalo na't nag- iba ang mga ruta ng sasakan.
Pwede bang mag soul-searching tas nasa bahay ka lang?
Ang kukulit ng mga pamangkin ko. I love those kiddos to bits. It's just that the hard-core introvert in me is already crying for some peace.
I need an overpriced coffee.
01:38 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Last day ng aking bakasyon grande, at eto, wala kaming kuryente.
Nag exceed na naman ata sa load. Nirestart na yung breaker, same parin. Sa lingo pa available yung mag-aayos dahil may ibang project. Tumawag kami sa Meralco. Daratint daw sila within 24 hours.
Pag bukas hindi ako makapasok bukas matapos at 4 na araw na wala ako sa trabaho, lagot ako neto. Huhu.
Nakisaksak kami sa kapitbahay today dahil may online class at pamangkin ko, at si Kuya, may trabaho. May enough naman kaming extension. Makakapasok pa rin siguro ako bukas. Tiis tiis lang.
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May free redemption code for 1 year premium subscription for Viu arrived just in time when I finished Do Do Sol Sol La La Sol on Netflix. Ngayon, I'm watching Mr. Queen. Kala ko hype lang, at mejo inantok ako sa 1st episodes (maybe dahil sa puyat na rin), but this KDrama broke the record ng puyat threshold ko. Jealosy Incarnate was the record holder as it kept me awake until past 4. Pero sa Mr. Queen, past 5 na gising pa ko. Partida wala pa kaming WIFI bilang walang kuryente. Hindi pa ata ako titigil kung hindi ako na lowbat. I used my data from dedeemed points. Kahit mabagal nilaban. Hahahha.
Hayst, I love this drama. Tumatak sakin yung part na sinabi ni Mr. Queen something like, "I don't know why I'm ready to put everything in line for this person even if I know he's going to lose?"
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Oh sya, marami pa kong gagawin. Ja~
10:08 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
It's a Saturday and I'm back to work.
I finished Mr. Queen yesterday. Really, the sad thing about having encountered a great drama is that once it's finished, it will leave a hollow empty feeling inside.
Now I don't know if I'm feeling sad because my bakasyon grande is over, or because I'm missing the king in Mr. Queen. Tokwa.
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Reviewing the Seven Spiritual Laws of Success by Deepak Chopra. The last time I applied the principles, I somehow ended up having 2.5 times more income. Go try for yourself. Haha.
In a way, marami parin akong reklamo sa buhay. Marami parin akong gustong mangyari na hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko to make things happen. Things just happen sometimes, you know. But it still doesn't feel right to just sit down and wait.
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The 2nd month of the year is about to pass. Let's do our best to be happier everyday.
03:03 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
