Entries for March, 2022
Spending 2 days at work, 2 days VL, 1 day training, tas 2 days rest day. Should've spent the entire weekdays off if it wasn't for the mandatory training on Wednesday. TL offered to change the training for me, I told him I'll just attend.
Wednesday is a good schedule bilang 6PM to 3AM yung training. I have the following Tuesday to sleep if needed. Besides, makakasabay ko pa si Wendy. May ka chismisan ako pag na bored na ko. Iniisip ko lang kung saan ako magte training dito sa bahay. My work station at home is in my parents' room. They'll be asleep during my training. Baka kailanganin ko mag work sa sala. May multo sa 1st floor namin where the sala is. I haven't seen it yet though. Should be fine, right? Lol, bahala na.
Watching Kuroko's basketball. Shield Hero was awful. This one is so-so. Siguro nako compare ko rin kasi sa Slam Dunk. I miss the entire Haikyuu crew.
Been having sneezing fit these days. The air purifier necklace is surely helping a lot, but it's not enough. Maybe I need to desk, or maybe the entire room. Which will probably make the sneezing worse.
I need a housemaid.
08:31 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Problamadong problemado ako kung paano ako tatagal nang hanggang 3am sa training mamaya. I used to be able to stay awake until 5am, pero lately, 9pm palang, antok na antok na ko. My threshold now is until 12 midnight.
I drank macha green tea frappe with coffee jelly today. Bumili rin ako ng coffee flavored donuts para mamaya. I'm pretty sure real coffee shall do the trick, I'm just scared of GERD.
Dear eyes, gambare!
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Kuroko's basketball turned out to be really nice by the final season. I love Junpei. I ship him hard for Coach Riko.
Also finished Bungo Stray Dogs yesterday and started watching Tokyo Revengers. These two have a more matured plot. They're nothing like any other animes I've watched before. Really, meron bang pangit na anime at all?
Too much violence in TR though. Got so bothered if the protagonist will be able to save Draken, I checked for spoilers a little. I love Draken and Mikey. I want both of them to be safe and happy.
Lol... should be sleeping now at 1:50PM. After the coffee jelly, is that even possible?
I. MUST. NOT. OPEN. THE. TV.
01:57 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
やばい! もう眠いだ 。
08:45 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Tokyo Revengers final episode left me on the edge of my seat, I couldn't accept that, that was the end, so ended up reading the continuation in the manga.
Funny, the comments are on fire. They hate the main character with a passion, yet keep on reading the next chapters. Lol. Can't blame them. I'm the same.
Please save Naoto T_T.
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Slept around 4am . Woke up past 6am. Don't feel sleepy at all. I watched Doukyuusei yesterday while on training. Had BL romances always been this heartwarming?
04:51 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Had a weird dream.
I was eating on a food stall. Not sure what food. Must be mami as I was holding a bowl. The attendant of the stall could not find the bowl cover, so she made me wait. She must be thinking I stole it. She later found it with another customer. I ate my food and left as I was about to attend a meeting. I did not know what kind of meeting, but it seemed important.
I went to go to the meeting with some friends. We found an ice scream stall. Self-sevice. The attendant guided one of my friends to put vanilla ice scream first, then dispense the springles, the add the charcoal ice cream on top. I was scrutinizing the ice cream machine when I realized the the shop closed, the attendant earlier and my friends were nowhere to be found.
A male maintenance assisted me to operate the ice cream machine. The male owner was also there. I finished putting my ice cream on the cone when I realized, my wallet was not there.
Later, Cherry-ann, a high shool friend, came with her friends, to check the ice cream stall. I was thinking of borrowing some money from her to pay my ice cream, but she also disappeared.
I then saw Jenna, a college friend, hiding on top of the tree. She seemed to be with Shara and Nini, along with my other college friends. They appeared to be playing some prank on me. I hid on a wooden beam. I heard some hammering. I noticed that the wooded beam next to me was not connected with nails. I pushed one of the smaller beams, and a portion of the establishment collapsed. I found myself holding a device that was supposed to hammer the nail into the wood effortlessly. Then I woke up.
May meaning ba talaga ang nga panaginip? I often dream of being on a high place, and not being able to go down.
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!!!SPOILERS ALERT!!!
Natapos ko na ang latest chapter ng Tokyo (Manji) Revengers in Manga. Ang sama sama lang ng loob ko. After going through all the efforts to save Draken... tokwa, bat naman ganun?
Sabi ng comment, "sana masarap ulam ng author ngayong gabi". Lol. The author and Draken have the same name. Bakit naman ganun? Huhu!
09:40 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Good morning, Monday!
Trying to read a knowledge base article in Japanese. My head started spinning, so I went here instead.
Naalala ko yung sabi ng isang character sa Haikyuu. Kaya di mo na e-enjoy, kasi hindi ka pa magaling. Same sa sabi ni Oliver Emberton dati, ang passion daw ay hindi in-born kundi something na nage-gain pag naging magaling ka na sa isang bagay.
Passion... tokwa.
Ayoko na mag-isip ng mahihirap na bagay.
A guy once asked me kung anong favorite kong movie. After hearing that my favorites were the likes of Kung-fu Panda, he said, "yung gusto mo talaga e yung di ka nag-iisip e no." He actually sounded a little pissed off. Lol.
I have a few more matured movies on my favorites list now. Infinity War, Inception, Limitless... these are movies that require thinking naman, di ba?
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Finished watching Mairimashi! Iruma-kun. It was so funny, I needed to pause as I couldn't breathe from laughing. Lol. Netflix didn't have the 2nd season, so I had to find it elsewhere. Season 3 is also on it's way. Guess I need to read the continuation in manga.
Jeez, life is just so much better with anime!
09:22 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
My favorite drink in the world is SB's matcha green tea frappe with coffee jelly add-ons.
I love cuppucino, but I haven't tried SB's. Do they even have cappuccino? All the hot drinks I've tried in SB tasted awful.
Papermoon's and Figaro's cappuccinos are good. Jollibee's and Dunkin Donut's brewed coffee is also good. If you happen to visit Shercon Resort in Batangas, that shabby eatery outside Shercon serves really great coffee. You can also try their beans. Batangas has the best coffee beans.
We haven't been using our coffee maker in a while. We ran out of beans and the ones available here doesn't compare to the one we bought in Batangas. I wonder if I can use coffee beans from SB.
I want to buy a coffee machine, but I can't really drink coffee regularly for health reasons. Neither are my parents. I miss having coffee in Shangri-la. I miss Shangri-la and Megamall.
I haven't brought my parents to eat out for the longest time now. I've already reached my target emergency fund. I should be free to spend a little now. It's just that, if I bring them with me, it will take so much time. I usually go and eat alone, then quickly go home and just buy pasalubong. That way, I'll be able to go back home in time to feed my cats.
Dad walks really slow. Mom keeps going back and forth to the toilet to pee. We'd probably spend a minimum of 4 hours if we go there together. If I go alone, I can spend less than an hour to eat and go home quickly.
I want to eat a decent meal. Dad used to cook well. Must be because he's getting old. Now his cooking are either too salty, or too... i dont know... gross? Bland-tasting food is fine. I just can't handle extreme flavors.
At my age, I know I shouldn't rely of my aged parents to cook for me. But if cook on my own, it might not even be edible. I once cooked pasta that was too bad, even the stray dogs refused to eat it.
If we'll eat out, we'll get to eat good food. Dad will not get tired from cooking and mom will not have to wash the dishes. Everybody happy. But I also want to go home early.
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I ran out of things to watch in Netflix. I'm watching Attack on Titan now, but I'm not sure if I can continue watching. I mean, real life has pandemic and war in Ukraine, tas on my leisure time, post-apocalyptic anime pa papanoorin ko? Seriously.
I finished the latest chapter of Iruma in manga. I love this so much. I hate that almost all of my favorites are on-going.
Fire Force and Billionaire Detective is too serious. I just managed to watch an episode or two. Gusto ko pa rin talaga e yung mejo comedy naman.
Nakakatamad. Gusto ko ng green tea frappe na may coffee jelly.
12:06 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
I kinda get its popularity now. Before I knew it, I was already in season 3. I read somewhere that Levi will die. Sana fake news. I wonder if it will happen in this season. I want Levi to be always healthy and happy. He and Armin are my favorites.
23 minutes before my shift. Debating whether to open the tv and watch at least one ep, or move my desk so I'll be facing the tv and watch when avail the entire shift.
Goodness, my mind is practically living in anime world already.
07:38 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
何も捨てることが出来ないひとには何も変えることが出来ないだろう。
This was Armin's line that I saved in my note pad few eps ago. Damn, whoever create this ingenious masterpiece? Sobrang ganda! I can't watch it on my phone, it has to be on tv. Grabe ang intense, I need to pause for my heart to catch up. Goodness.
I'm on season 3 part 2. I've seen a meme in FB on how Armin will look like in season 4 so I'm still hopeful he'll somehow survive after getting burned. I want to stop predicting what's next... seriously, this too good. Sana hanggang sa ending, overwhelmingly good parin.
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Officemate sent me a screenshot of an email containing the news. Looks like companies like ours were being forced by the government to go on 100% RTO by April 1. I asked a friend from the same industry. Said their company's not gonna follow the government's mandate, and plans to resume the office mid-May. Magbabayad nalang daw ng fine yung company nila. I wonder if our company will do the same. There's no official announcement yet.
I remember Armin's line. I also remember the line from The Richest Man In Babylon. It's not good for people to not work daw. And also something from Illusions (The Adventures of the Reluctant Messiah) about sacrificing boredom.
I'd love to stay working from home, but it's not like I can be like this forever, di ba?
Bahala na. I guess I want to practice detachment on this topic. Bahala na talaga.
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Recently getting engrossed with BL manga. This is kinda addicting. If we are to go back to the office by April, I want to make use of the remaining days, watching anime and reading manga. It's not like I can read this once I'm back at the office, you know. I don't know why BL sends more kilig than usual love stories. Sobrang cute eh!
I just finished Koisuru Boukun. The story is so heartwarming, though a little nsfw. It's still ongoing. The other BL mangas I had read were cute too, but I forgot the title. I usually read based on categories. I've never encountered a boring BL romance just yet. Will read a new one tomorrow.
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What's in store for us around April kaya no? Tipong literal na buwis-buhay pag pumasok ka sa trabaho. Parang ang sakit sa ulo ng naka mask for more than 12 hrs. Tokwa. Alam ko namang hindi pwedeng nandito lang ako sa bahay at habang buhay na nanonood ng anime. Alam ko ring kailangan kong palawakin pa ang mundo ko... pero seriously? Commuting everyday for 5 to 6 hours in virus-infested streets from Bulacan to Quezon City and back? Hindi ba suicide yun?
Wah! Bahala na.
10:49 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
"Give up on your dreams and die" - Levi Ackerman
Got past ep 80. The story is all messed up now. For my own peace of mind, I checked wiki fandom to see if Levi was indeed going to die. I still don't want to spoil everything so I haven't checked Armin yet. Jeez. Do I really have to go through all the unnecessary heartbreaks for these fictional characters?
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Had a meeting with the boss and our TL yesterday. I would've refused since it was my day off if it wasn't about something important to me —RTO.
I've raised my concerns regarding return to the office and requested for a wfh setup extension. Boss said he'll give me 6 weeks more, but we will still need the approval of HR.
Humans will always get what they settle for, so I think it's always wise to negotiate. If the HR will approve, my RTO will start on May 2 instead of April 1. Crossing fingers.
I know I need to expand my world. I know we will all eventually go back to the office. I heard that a work from home related bill is on its way. I was hoping the extension can just buy me some time... but then again, what will I benefit from staying home for so long besides getting stagnant?
Argh. Damn.
09:11 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Every time I eat something sweet, I feel like I'm shortening my life span.
Drinking coke now with chocolate syrup. I hate the taste of regular coke, I can't really stand it, but Ted said that artificial sugar in sugar-free drinks can cause cancer. I guess this is a better choice. I just finished my coke zero float though. This is just a refill as we do not have coke zero at home.
I'm not forgetting that I am sick.
When I was younger, I thought that 30 years was a long enough number of years to live. I still think the same at 36. Parang yung sabi sa isang kanta, "I've had just enough time."
If you're not scared of dying, then what's really there left to be afraid of?
My late friend, Cristina, predicted that she was not going to live past 30. She died few months before she reached that age. She also made a prediction about me. She said that when that prediction came true, I would remember her. I remember the prediction to date. It still hasn't come true yet.
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I've finished the last ep available for Attack on Titan. I think the next ep will be released on April 4. Final ep na ata. I'm not sure. Started watching the spin-off series.
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Having bout of sadness for days now. Feelings like this usually go away when ignored. I've just been thinking of what to do with my life. I remember wanting to do great things when I was younger. Then at some point, great things stopped to matter.
Naalala ko yung scene sa Tangled na conflicted si Rapunzel kung anong gagawin yan pag natupad na yung pangarap nya. Tas sabi ni Flynn Rider, something like, "then, just find a new dream."
Ang simple nung sagot sa parehas na tanong na tinatanong ko sa sarili ko for the longest of time, back then. I happened to reached my life-long dream when I was 23, and from then on, I felt like I was just going with the flow, floating through life aimlessly.
Pero naalala ko, I have another life-long dream that I've set aside for the longest of time now. Ang hirap nya kasing makuha. Hindi ko alam kung paano ko ba makukuha. At hindi ko rin alam kung makakabuti ba sakin kung makukuha ko sya.
Now I'm once again conflicted. Should I get off my ass and work towards this dream that may even turn out to be something I don't really like? Or should I just continue having the comfort of floating aimlessly through life?
The fact that I have these options is a blessing in itself. I think we need to quit the unnecessary drama. I just feel like, I don't have an infinite amount of time, so making the correct choice is crucial.
But what makes a correct choice though?
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Gah, this drink is killing me faster than heat stroke. Sobrang init sa Pilipinas, I'm resorting to ingesting drinks that are bad for me.
01:46 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Took an SL today to see a dentist, only to find out that they were fully booked. Got myself sheduled late April. To kill time, I went to the next mall, and somehow ended up in a skin clinic having some diode treatment thingy. It's like an IPL, but more advanced. Killed 4k in 1 sitting. It will cover a total of 4 sessions though, and a few products, so, not bad na. I should've done this way before RTO. Said I'm not allowed to do anything with my armpits. Ang hirap magiging babae no?
But if I am to be born again, I'd still wish to be a woman. Well, only for the prevelidges. But being a man doesn't sound so bad too. I think it's so much less hassle.
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I remember a long time ago, at school. There was this physical exam thingy. To save time, the attendant physically examined a number of women in one go. Chest exam.
I was mixed with this woman from the same dept. We never really talked much, she was just someone I knew.
Few days after the physical exam, the girl went up to me to profusely say sorry. Said she didn't know we're going to get mixed at the physical exam. I absolutely had no idea what was there to be sorry about, but at that time, she looked so kawawa being apologetic like that, so I said, it's all fine. Later, someone told me that the girl liked me.
What's kakko warui in English? I do not know how that is supposed to be translated, but that was how I felt. I mean, it hurt my woman's pride. Like, do I look like a man, to be liked by a woman? Lol.
I still don't understand why she said sorry that time. I mean, it wasn't her fault that we were told to undress. And we both have it. We both saw it. So, what's the big deal?
Anyway, maybe there are just still a lot of things that I do not understand in this world. And at this age, my experience in that department is still not much different from a fetus. It's kakko warui, you know.
There are so many things I want to understand.
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Had one of my cats scheduled for kapon tomorrow. I still remember the trauma I went through the 1st time I had my other cat neutered. If I have a better choice, I will never resort to this. Sana maging maayos ang lahat. Sana maging safe ang pusa ko.
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Time will pass even if I won't do anything, no? I think I might as well give it a try. My fear is to spend time, tears, and effort, then fail to get it in the end. Or, manage to get it, then realize that I don't want it afterall.
Well, ewan, bahalanaa.
I just don't want to be the same anymore.
02:32 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
