Entries for May, 2022
Started RTO yesterday. My arms and body are hurting from carrying my work laptop and monitor from Bulacan to QC. I'm on my day off today and tomorrow. Starting next week, my rest days will be Tuesday and Wednesday. I miss my Thur-Fri off.
My elder cats seem to have missed me a little. My male cat, Hamanya, rushed towards me upon hearing my voice when I got home. And Nicai, allowed me to cuddle her a little longer than usual. Iya had always been sweet and needy, so nothing seem to have changed. And then the kittens were totally indifferent about my absence.
I miss my cats. I usually cuddle and play with them during breaks when I was working from home. My male cat seemed to be having sepanx, Mom said he kept looking for me in our room where I used to work.
On Wednesday, I'll be back to work. I'm not thrilled. Oh well. Must be nice if I meet someone. I miss having one-sided crushes. Lol.
We have a lot of new hires we've never met before. A few of them were chatting with me via Teams and Messenger. I've met one yesterday. I can't see his face because of the mask, but his eyes look nice, and his brows were beautifully thick. I've checked his FB before, I know his face is beautiful. Sobrang bata nga lang. We just exchanged a few hello's. Anlayo rin kasi ng seat nya.
Bawal sa company namin makipag jowa among co-workers. Still nice to have an eye candy though.
Gah, all the sacrifices of having to commute and wake up early again will all be worth it if only I'll meet someone! Seriously.
If face to face meeting will resume, I'll go back to TM. Partly in the hope of meeting someone, partly because I also want to spend time with like-minded people, meron or wala mang malisyang involved.
Just woke up from a nap. I didn't expect to feel this worn out after my first commute to work in 2 years.
07:20 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
My leg hurts. I took a leave. I think I ran out of SLs already. I regret that I took a lot of SLs when I was working from home. I should've gone to work, if only I can walk properly.
After 2 years of not wearing pants, I started wearing it last Sunday when I had my RTO. It must be the cause of this painful bump on my upper leg. It's on the inner side, it hurts when bumped with my other leg. It has gotten bigger and more painful as days go by. Even sitting on the toilet is painful. Today, it has gotten worse, I find it hard to walk.
Boils, according to the doc. I asked if there's a way to cure it sooner as I need to get back to work tomorrow. Doc said it will take at least a week, even with medicine. So much longer if without. I said it would be hard to go to work as I'll need to walk, and it rubs with my other leg. Doc told me go use gauze. I tried it earlier, and it's doing very little to ease the pain. Tokwabels.
I can tolerate the pain, but my walking will look funny. Tokwabels ulet.
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Still not getting used with the commute. I sleep around 6 hours daily. I used to have so much less sleep, pero ngayon, sobrang level up yung pagod. The commute on the way back home yesterday was particularly hellish, lagpas isang MRT station yung haba ng nilakad ko just to ride a bus. Gusto ko na magka kotse. Ayoko mag drive. Gusto ko na yumaman.
Said we'll be transferring building soon. Pretty near the area. Sana maganda yung office. They're keeping the old building. We're just expanding, I guess.
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Nothing interesting. I also need network expansion.
01:58 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Nakasabay ko pauwi yung cute kiddo from pdt. Technically, hanggang sa exit ng building lang. Same pala kami ng sched. Learned that he's also voting for Leni.
Moment of truth na tomorrow. Feeling ko hindi sya mananalo. Sana mali ako. Good luck talaga sa Pilipinas.
Sighs. Bahala ka na, Universe.
10:04 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Diode sched today. Armpits can finally breathe, though only for about 3 days, maybe. Then, another 6 weeks to the next session.
Still plagued with this growing dissatisfaction.
An officemate introduced me to this online shopping app for clothes. I want to try different outfits. Denim pants are a pain in this heat. I tried out clothes after the diode session today, I didn't like any.
I felt like I've lost a few inches off my waistline. I want to lose more. I haven't heard from Mel regarding the plan to travel somewhere. She works for one of the leading TV Networks in PH. She must be busy, with the election and all.
I miss being busy. Though I barely have time for anything as I spend most of my waking hours with work and daily commute, I still miss actually being busy on more meaningful stuff.
The world is starting to go back to normal. I heard the face to face classes will start on Monday. I miss the action and the fun. I want to go back and do more.
I remember the conversation I had with some my workmates who were also on a weekend shift. I told them how different they are from my usual circle and on how I find it interesting.
I feel like there's so much to discover. About ourselves, about other people, about the world. Sobrang dami.
I know the cause of my dissatisfaction. I want to end this as soon as possible. I feel like getting this will complicate things and may prevent me from my desire to discover... I hope not. I hate restraint.
I hate restraint...
I hate... jeez, I just remember, Marcos is winning the presidential race.
I'm sad. Also a little scared. I understand that it can't be helped as this is how democracy works.
I remember in a management book I've read before. Said if you were to hire someone with questionable character, you have to make sure that he's super lazy and stupid. It would be great if he's actually lazy and stupid. We'll just have to wait until his term is over and hope that another chance for a better governance will come.
Night of the election, I was looking at the wall of our kitchen, contemplating if migrating elsewhere will be a good idea.
What's the worst to happen?
I'm not scared of dying. I don't want my family to die. And I hate restraint. I HATE RESTRAINT.
I hate it. I hate it so much. Tangina. He better be lazy and stupid. Sighs.
Okay. Let's calm down. I want to focus on the things that are within my control. I've just been slacking off all these time though.
I've been reading too much BL, I sometimes forget straight men exist. Haha! Oh wait, do they?
Gah! I've got so much to do.
12:35 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Leave office at 6. Get home by 8. dinner and evening rituals for 2 hours and around 10pm, I'll be in bed, with the alarm set at 5AM.
But this closet fujoshi cannot possibly end the day without having her daily dose of BL. I read 5-6 chapters before I sleep. I always lack sleep, but that's fine.
Life's pretty simple these days. It's not bad. It's not the best, but not bad.
Work is easy. Officemates are nice. Pay is good. Not bad.
Still, there is that "okay, ano na" feeling.
Okay. Ano na?
10:10 AMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
He was waving goodbye while leaning forward. Ang cute nya! Para syang anime! Bet na bet ko talaga this kiddo.
I should've waited a bit at the elevator. I really enjoy our mini conversations, I want to get to know more about him.
Said we're transferring building. Someone said, baka di daw kasama ang PDT. I hope that's not true.
10:24 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Meguri, my former JP boss from prev company, sent me a message saying that he's now working in the same company as mine, only, he's in Yokohama.
I owe so much to that guy. He helped me a lot, and kept helping me even long after he left the company, and even after I also left the company myself. It appears like we'll be having the same job. It's weird to be the sempai of my former boss.
He's as friendly as ever. I told him that he can ask me anytime about work as I hope to be able to help him this time around. Sa totoo lang, sobrang laking blessing sakin ng taong yun. I don't think I can ever do enough to repay his kindness. I hope he'll get to be friends with my other teammates as well. He's super friendly. I'm pretty sure he'll get to like my teammates. Partly e para hindi ako lang yung kinukulit nya. Haha. I'm more that willing to help him out with work, but his kwento can go on forever, so it will be better he'll have othet people to chat with.
Naisip ko lang... sablay man madalas ang love life ko, nabless naman ako ng universe ng mga amazing na tao like Meguri around me. Alam kong maiirita na naman ako sa haba ng mga kwento nya at mga kulang sa hulog na banat, but I'm still glad having Meguri around again.
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I like that kiddo. We only get to meet 3x a week as we have different rest days. Heck, I didn't even see him last Monday eventhough we were both on-shift (was glued on my PC as there was an outtage that affected a lot of JP users).
Jeez, how can I get closer?
11:31 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
Waiting for news regarding the building transfer tomorrow. 11PM, there's still no news.
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Heard that Ms. Ayen passed away. This came as a shock.
A lot of things happening...
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I fully get it. Now I can't sleep. Dang.
11:12 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
I shook hands with a stranger in the bus this morning as he was introducing himself. He didn't look bad. He's an accountant daw.
Then, nakasabay kong umuwi yung cute kiddo from PDT kanina. Mejo mahaba habang lakaran kaya nakapag kwentuhan ng bahagya.
Siguro 5/5 hearts ang love horoscope ko today.
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Nakalimutan kong mag book ng vet tomorrow.
I need to finish a contest entry na deadline din bukas. I don't know my chances of winning, pero excited akong maipakilala ang mga characters ng kwento ko sa ibang tao. I'm really struggling with the ending. Sabi na nga ba dapat sa ending nagsisimula.
Ang daming gagawin. Maglilinis pa ko ng kwarto ng cats bukas. Gusto ko ng yaya. T_T
11:25 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
I just clicked the "submit" button. Need pala na naka notarized yung entry. Wala nang oras, sinubmit ko na kahit di naka notaryo. Baka ma reject. Di bale, at least may idea na ko for next year.
I told Mom the champion will get only 18k, and she was like, "akin yung 8k". Lol. That was before I even sent my entry.
Mom said she wants to go to Korea. Looks like Tita from the province will be going here in Metro. Mom said we can ask Tita to take care of the cats while we're away. I need to save up ng bongga as I'll be financing a travel for the 3 of us, including Dad. I asked Mel if she wants to come. Sa malapit lang daw muna. I don't know if I can pull off travelling abroad on my own. It's not like I can rely on my parents eventhough I'll be travelling with them. I saw a tour package amounting to 35k per head. Kailangan ko ata ng 6-digits para i-push to. I'm not confident in going DIY.
I lent 100k to my tita the last time. Will be lending 50k more. She said she'll be paying an interest of 20k by the time she pays me on October. Mom and Dad asked me not to put an interest na daw as the same tita helped us a lot back when we had very little money. She never asked us to pay for interest back then. She even gave us money to deposit in the hospital back when Dad was needed to be sent to the ICU about 10 years ago. Well, I didn't ask her to pay, it was her who offered that amount as an interest. I'm thinking of letting her pay just half of the agreed. Bahala na.
Okay, saka ko na iisipin ang money matters.
04:19 PMにcinderellaareus によって書かれました。
